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“Imposed Womanhood” a forced feminization story

“Imposed Womanhood” a forced feminization story authored by Yu Sakurazawa has been published.

[Introduction] 44-year-old orthopedic surgeon Nikhil Lobo has everything going for him—a great career and a loving wife. He and his wife Danielle are soon planning on starting a family. When Nikhil is in Bangalore for a felicitation, he is befriended by an amiable young man called Percy Pinto. Percy insists on giving Nikhil a lift, but abducts and incarcerates him instead. During captivity, Nikhil is castrated and asked to do humiliating things like put on makeup and dress in brassieres and miniskirts. He is also sexually assaulted by his captors. Meanwhile, Danielle is held hostage in her own home by a woman called Sophia. Sophia is the leader of the gang which has abducted Nikhil. The gang demands a ransom of Rs. 3 Crore for Nikhil’s and Danielle’s release. However, they don’t let the couple free go even after receiving the money. Soon, Nikhil’s harrowing journey towards transitioning into Natasha begins. Why is the gang forcibly feminizing him?


Imposed Womanhood

by Yu Sakurazawa


Chapter 1 – Born under Enviable Stars

A tall athletic body. A posh house in Cuffe Parade overlooking the Marine Drive. At 44, renowned orthopedic surgeon, Dr. Nikhil Elias Lobo, had it all.

He glanced towards and smiled at the shapely redhead standing in the kitchen. She was scribbling on her notepad as she made herself coffee. His 27-year-old wife Danielle Bisset was the most precious possession in Nikhil Lobo’s life. He had met her the previous year during a visit to the Louvre Museum in Paris. Danielle had worked as museum staff. The museum was nearly closing, and Nikhil had reserved an early morning flight to Mumbai the next day. Danielle had helped him see the painting of Mona Lisa and the sculpture of Venus and Cupid in the nick of time, before the museum closed for the day at 5pm. A much grateful Nikhil had taken the gorgeous Danielle for coffee after the two had talked for hours. Nikhil learnt that Danielle had taken a course in English and edited manuscripts of English books during nights and weekends.

Nikhil himself had many feathers in his cap. He had graduated from the Mumbai Medical College, and subsequently, done his MS from Safdarjang and UCMS in Delhi. He currently worked as the head surgeon at Shetty College of Medical Sciences in Mumbai. He had earned a great reputation for treating patients with musculoskeletal injuries like cartilage damage, hip and shoulder problems, knee injuries and so on. He was revered by each soul who graced the earth.

Nikhil believed in providing a model for his patients by adopting a healthy life style, replete with a balanced diet and lots of exercise. His twinkling eyes, stylish goatee and flat belly had won Danielle over. Even after Nikhil had returned to India, he and Danielle had kept in touch. Three months later, Danielle had flown over. She and Nikhil had got married in a huge, flamboyant ceremony. It happened three years ago.

Just when he had thought that his personal and professional life couldn’t get any better, Nikhil heard that he was going to be presented with the “Best Surgeon Award” during a felicitation ceremony, which was to be held at the Bangalore branch of Shetty group of hospitals.

Danielle had decided not to attend the function. She worked from home and had a deadline to meet. She promised to watch Nikhil live from the comfort of their home. Nikhil was upset at first, but agreed with Danielle.

He flew down to Bangalore and stayed in the luxurious Oberoi Hotel. The Shetty Institute of Medical Sciences, Bangalore, the venue of his felicitation, was located about 20 minutes from the hotel.

On the D-Day, Nikhil dressed in an immaculate grey suit with a pink tie that Danielle had gifted him. He took a cab to the felicitation venue. The award ceremony was a showy one attended by politicians, stalwarts from the medical and other professions and of course, the media. After a brief speech by the hospital dean, Nikhil was presented with a shining golden trophy. He soon found himself talking to a dozen noisy reporters, thrusting microphones in his face. The sound of thunderous applause reached his ears. Nikhil smiled. He felt invincible.

A buffet lunch was organized after the felicitation. As Nikhil heaped mashed potatoes and chicken curry on his plate, a man ambled up to him. He was in his early 30s and wore a black suit.

“Hello Dr. Lobo, I’m Percy Pinto” he said in an airy tone “you had fixed my grand mom’s knee a couple of years ago. The surgery was a terrific success. Good old granny can walk without the help of a stick now”.

Nikhil grinned broadly. “A pleasure, Percy” he said “glad your grand mom is doing well”. Several patients came to Mumbai especially to see Nikhil. He had operated on so many people that he obviously didn’t remember the man’s grandmother.

Nikhil continued heaping food on his plate. Percy too got himself a plate and served himself meat and vegetables.

“All of us have immense respect for you, Dr. Lobo” he continued “We think of you as God. My little nephew wants to grow up to be a doctor like you”.

“Thanks” said Nikhil beaming. He was irked by Percy’s presence, but welcomed his praise. He found a table and sat down. Percy sat down next to him.

Over the next twenty minutes, the younger man prattled on. Nikhil didn’t mind. The conversation was flattering with Percy singing praises of him.

Every two minutes, Nikhil caught the eye of a well-known politician. Other well-respected doctors nodded at him. However, noticing that Nikhil had company, no one disturbed him.

After the meal, Nikhil was overcome by the sudden urge to get away from the noisy hospital grounds and retire to the peaceful seclusion of Oberoi Hotel. Just when he was thinking of booking a cab, Percy offered to drop him.

“Oh, no” said Nikhil “I wouldn’t want to inconvenience you”.

“It’s no inconvenience, doctor” replied Percy smiling “my family and I owe you so much; this is the least I can do for you”.

Nikhil considered the offer. Taking a lift from the grateful Percy wasn’t a bad idea. He would get to the hotel sooner. Booking a cab was usually a hassle.

“I’ll take you up on your offer” he said suavely. In a minute, Nikhil and Percy traipsed down to the car park and got into Percy’s car. It was a well-worn Alto, unlike the posh Mahindra SUV Nikhil drove.

Percy made small talk as he drove down the lovely MG Road. He talked about his family, automobiles and politics. He had an absorbing manner of speaking; soon Nikhil found himself hanging on to every word that Percy said. He came to his senses only when Percy turned into unfamiliar little side street, instead of the beautiful wide road that led to Oberoi Hotel.

He spoke up. “I’m not too familiar with Bangalore” Nikhil said “but I think you have taken the wrong turn”.

“Oh no, Dr. Nikhil” said the younger man “I was born and brought up in Bangalore. Know the damn city like the back of my hand. I don’t even need a Google map or any of the other shit people use nowadays. This particular turn will take you to Oberoi Hotel faster”.

His tone was mellow, like a soothing massage. Nikhil found himself pushing his seat back and reclining. He felt he might fall asleep right there and then.

He was rudely awakened by Percy. The young man held an inconspicuous little pistol in one hand and ordered Nikhil to get off.


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Prisoned in Femininity – Forced Feminization Series

Title: Prisoned in Femininity
Author: Yu Sakurazawa

Angela is a 35-year-old female patient, who has been living in Aspen Hospital for a decade. She apparently suffers from amnesia and has no memory of her life before coming to Aspen Hospital. The amnesia was apparently the result of a head injury that Angela had suffered from when in a car accident 17 years ago. The car accident had evidently killed her parents.

Angela has everything going for her: a beautiful face, body and caring hospital staff. She also has a loving extended family comprising of a paternal uncle and two male cousins. However, Angela distrusts them all—the staff, the family and her own body. A sole memory and an incongruous tattoo prove that she was born a man, not a woman.

Prisoned in Femininity

by Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 – Fettered

I gazed out of the window at stony hill tops, long rushes and listened to the sounds of a nearby river. It was a cold Saturday morning, insufficiently warmed by the central heating of Aspen Hospital. I had been shut away at the hospital for about ten years now; I recalled, as my eyes took note of black clouds gathering over in the high skies. There was a hint of rain, probably even of a thunderstorm.

I lay back against my overstuffed white pillow. Today was one of my better days as I remembered some things like the fact that I had been in Aspen for 10 years. Most of the time, I had trouble remembering what I had done a couples of days or even a few hours ago. They said I had some sort of amnesia. The forgetfulness was apparently caused due to a head injury I had suffered as a result of a car accident, which had killed both my parents. That’s what the hospital records said.

They said I had been 18 when the accident occurred; I was 35 now. I had been in Aspen Hospital for only a decade; seven years of my life was unaccounted for. I tried hard to remember what had occurred during this time, but failed. Neither could I recollect the first 18 years of my life. All I could recall was being shut up in this mirthless place with its bleak white walls, locked and barred doors and shuttered iron windows.

I threw myself on the bed and started to cry. Things were hopeless and didn’t show any signs of improvement. I yearned for a bit of sunshine, the sight of highland horses, mallard ducks and fluffy white clouds floating in the air. But apart from my books, I had nothing. They wouldn’t even allow me to have pen and paper. The dean, Theodor Hickman, said that I needed to rest. “You’ll need to get alright as soon as possible, won’t you?” he’d said grinning from ear to ear “how would that be possible if you’re scribbling away until the wee hours of the morning?” He pretended to be cheerful and avuncular. But Dean Hickman’s smile didn’t reach his eyes. They always remained hard and vigilant. I didn’t trust the man with my eyes open. Nor did I trust anybody else in this godforsaken place.

Presently, I heard a knock on the door. Nurse Daisy Hill walked in, wheeling a tray. “Good morning, Angela” she said with exaggerated brightness “I hope you slept well”. Nurse Hill’s plump face had the same fake smile plastered on it. Her tiny porcine eyes were wary. Didn’t these fiends get tired of pretending forever?

“Yes, somewhat” I said out aloud. I observed Nurse Hill making the tea and setting the cup on a tray along with a couple of unappetizing biscuits.

I knew that something was seriously wrong with Aspen Hospital and its staff. But who would believe me? I was a patient who sometimes couldn’t even remember my own name or what I had eaten a couple of hours ago. All I could do was eat, sleep and do some of my daily chores.

Nurse Hill offered to brush my hair as I sipped my rather milky tea. She gave me a functional square mirror to look at my face. I had a narrow beautiful face, a sharp aquiline nose, full red lips and a headful of long thick straw-colored hair. I was a classical beauty, but the realization of the fact brought me no joy. My cheek was pale like that of a vampire who was kept away from sunlight. My wide blue eyes appeared haunted. Even though I couldn’t remember much, my face told a story of repressed horrors and unspeakable secrets. I was not the person they said I was. I was someone else.

Of course, I couldn’t remember who I really was before I came to Aspen Hospital. There wasn’t a shred of personality I could call my own.

Nurse Hill brushed my hair in brisk, efficient strokes. My hair shimmered, and I wished I was allowed to wear something smarter than the drab blue hospital gown. As far as I remember, I wasn’t allowed to wear anything else.

This was a fucking prison. I’d escape someday. But what was the use. I’d always feel trapped because I was not the person they said I was. I definitely was someone else.

There was another knock at the door. A tall, hefty middle-aged guy walked in. He was dressed in white and was carrying some sort of a kit. I remembered that he was Luke Stevenson, the other nurse who had been taking care of me for the past decade.

“Trust you’re feeling better this morning” he said gruffly.

I nodded warily. I watched Nurse Stevenson open the kit and prepare a huge injection. In a minute, he caught hold of my left arm and emptied the contents of my injection into a vein. I tried to remember why the injection was being administered, but couldn’t. I opened my mouth with the intention of asking Nurse Stevenson about it.

Before I could do that, my arms and legs started jerking uncontrollably. I felt a familiar anxiety seize me. As I thrashed my limbs, I felt my mind growing hazy. I couldn’t remember my name any more, where I was or what I was doing here.

The nurses tried to hold me down on the bed with their powerful arms. Nurse Stevenson retrieved a piece of cloth from somewhere and stuffed it in between my teeth. I realized that he did that so that I didn’t bite my tongue.

“I’m having a violent epileptic fit” was my final coherent thought before I lost consciousness.

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Feminized by Hypnosis – A Transgender Suspense Story

  • Title: Feminized by Hypnosis
  • Category: A Transgender Suspense Story
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa

Adam Beckwell is a 21-year-old student of finance. He is 5’7 and slender, with brown hair and soulful brown eyes. Adam is always gloomy, fears expressing himself and is disgusted by sex. He is teased by his classmates and called “stuffed shirt”. Adam is easily suggestible and believes each word his psychiatrist tells him. He is emotionally dependent and is incapable of making his own decisions.

Susan Farley is Adam’s 19-year-old neighbor. She is 5’7 and slender, with black hair and cornflower blue eyes. Susan loves life. She has a sunny temperament, dresses boldly and isn’t afraid to express herself. She loves the good things in life like writing poetry and masturbating. Susan takes a writing class in London, where she meets the love of her life.

When Adam develops depression and meets psychiatrist, Dr. Ella Brown, she suggests that he and Susan may be the same person. Ella convinces Adam that he suffers from Dissociative Personality Disorder as well as Gender Identity Disorder. She tells Adam that Susan represents his self and encourages him to express himself as Susan would. Slowly, Adam develops a desire to feminize and develop a body like a woman’s.

Feminized by Hypnosis

Subtitle: A Dangerous Therapist

Disclaimer: The representation of Dissociative Personality Disorder and its treatment may not be hundred percent authentic. Artistic liberty has been taken in the representation of the same.

Chapter 1 – Adam, the Stuffed Shirt

I looked at myself in the mirror. The conservative pants, white shirt and grey blazer looked elegant on my slender frame. I considered adding a tie to my attire, but decided against it. After all, I was only a student, not a professor.

My name is Adam Beckwell. The fact that I, a 21 year old guy dressed like a “fuddy-duddy oldie” had become a joke in my college. My choice of attire combined with my long, rather morose face and the incapacity to lighten up made me the butt of many jibes. My batch mates called me a “stuffed shirt” and made fun of my “perpetually constipated look” I chose to think I had a stiff upper lip. My parents had taught me not to display unnecessary emotion.

I hail from Bakewell Village, in the valley of River Wye in Central Derbyshire. Thinking of Bakewell brought back memories of the Monday market, cattle, agricultural lands and Bakewell tart! Being in London for three years had almost made me forget my roots. I loved Bakewell; however, I was also frightened of it…

My mother still lives in the village and I visit her once in 6 months. I have mama’s sensitive brown eyes and bud-like lips. She complains that I don’t go and see her often enough. Mama worked as a kindergarten school teacher and was also a conscientious church-goer. She took me and dad along with her to the mass every Sunday. I was taught to religiously read the bible every day. This sort of puritanical upbringing has shaped my views on life, death and punishment.

Punishment. The word made me think of deceased dad. His ogre-like frame and ruddy face sprang in front of my vision. He was chasing me, half-laughing and half-angry. I ran away from him for dear life. Chills ran down my tender spine. Hairs stood up my five year old neck. Dad succeeded in catching me by the scruff of my collar. He spanked me for being a “bad boy” and for enraging God…

And then, he…

The alarm presently rang loudly. I had set it for a particular time, but was ready before that. I had one last glimpse at myself in the mirror and headed towards college. It is located in Earls Court, the area I have rented accommodation in. I walked down to college, trying to appreciate the pretty streets and houses.

The image of dad lying on the hospital bed barged into my vision. He had been diagnosed with Hodgkin’s Lymphoma Stage IV two years back. He had swollen lymph nodes in his armpits and had lost a gallon of weight. He had survived for only five months after the diagnosis. Mama had been upset that I refused to look after dad during his final days. However, I had been terrified to be around disease and impending death. I had also been petrified to be around dad…

Now, I was disturbed. I noticed that my hands were trembling. I shouldn’t have worked myself into this state. I shouldn’t have thought of Bakewell. I shouldn’t have thought of dad. I shouldn’t have thought of the church.

The past had had a negative impact on my present. When my contemporaries were fucking like bunnies, I’m still chaste. I seem to have no desire to copulate. I regard sex as something, which is animalistic and filthy. However, I don’t tell people that. They would regard me as abnormal.

I’d told my batch mates that I’m saving myself for marriage. This is untrue. I’m petrified at the thought of walking down the aisle and deflowering my wife. I don’t know how I’m going to get around this situation. I’d probably hide under the cloak of religiosity and not get married at all. I could become a theologist and remain unmarried.

Apart from sex, I’m terrified of blood. The thought of a woman on her period disgusts me. Even if I engaged in sex, I’d never do it with a woman on her period. Ugh!

The impressive college campus came in sight. I snapped out of my morbid thoughts and walked inside with a sense of relief. The world of investing and finance took away my mind from other aspects of life. After all, speaking my mind and expressing myself was something that I had been most terrified of….

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Trapped (subtitle:Feminized for Revenge) has been published

Oliver is a handsome 32-year-old chartered accountant, who runs his own CPA firm in London. He has come a long way from his delinquent, teenage days in Blackpool, when he was forced to commit several indiscretions by school bully, Jake Hornsby.

Oliver hits rock bottom when his girlfriend, Mia Jones leaves him for a Frenchman. He takes a road trip to get over the break up and stops at a bar cum restaurant called Movers & Shakers for a brew and a bite. Oliver notices that the waitresses at the bar behave strangely on noticing him. Oliver begins getting strange vibes from the place.

He thinks of leaving it as quickly as possible, but stops at the restroom first. He is captured by two men, who seem to be operating on the orders of a woman called Madam X. Oliver is subsequently feminized, pimped, forced to have a uterus transplant and carry a baby to term. When the infant is six months old, Oliver (now Olivia) is wrenched away from her and is taken to work in what is evidently a Baby Formula factory, but turns out to be another ghastly faculty where Olivia’s body is exploited.

Who is Madam X and why is she inflicting these tortures on Oliver? Is Madam X a jealous colleague, competitor or flustered ex-girlfriend of Oliver’s?


Subtitle: Feminized for Revenge

Chapter 1 – The Swashbuckling CPA

Phones were ringing everywhere. Secretaries were buzzing from one department to another. It was an active mid-morning in a posh, multi-storied office in Kensington. Dressed in a double-breasted purple suit, Oliver Knight answered his forty-ninth call of the day.

At 32, he had his own CPA firm in London. Oliver had started as a Certified Professional Accountant 9 years back and had established his own firm, Knight & Co. only two years back. Knight and Co. prioritized helping smaller companies to grow and establish themselves in the market. It also helped start-ups with business plans, loan applications and venture capital funding.

Knight & Co. had done terrific business since its inception. The credit for its success had gone to the blonde, swashbuckling godfather of the company. Oliver was as well known for his classical good looks as he was for his energy, dedication and expertise.

Presently, Oliver was in a pensive mood. “I have every reason to be proud of myself” he thought gazing out of the huge, transparent glass window “after all, I have come a long way since my Blackpool days”. Oliver was lost in a day dream for a couple of seconds before Lily Little, his personal secretary gently knocked at his door.

There was nothing “little” about Lily. She was a big, strong warrior-like woman with an inner personality to match. She made sure that Oliver’s schedule was flawlessly managed and was a major factor that had contributed to his stupendous success.

Presently, Lily said, “I’m sorry to disturb you, sir, but I wish to remind you of your meeting with. Ms. Jones. You’re to meet her at Coffee House at 11:30”.

“Oh yes, I’d forgotten!” said Oliver jumping to his feet “I hope Mia won’t be furious!”

Mia Jones was Oliver’s girlfriend of six years. He had met her through an online dating site and had been in a steady relationship with her ever since. Mia was everything Oliver appreciated in a woman—energetic, enthusiastic and extremely charismatic. She had been interning in special education in France for the past 4 months and had returned to England only the previous day. Mia had called him and said that she had wanted to talk. Her voice had sounded grave. Oliver wondered if Mia might broach the subject of marriage. She’d hinted that she was keen on settling down and having a baby.

Currently, Oliver rushed to Coffee House, which was situated right opposite his office. The slim, elfin form of Mia came into his line of vision. She looked adorable in a polo-necked t-shirt and a pair of rust-colored leather pants.

“Hey there!” Oliver greeted rushing to embrace Mia. He was shocked to discover that Mia didn’t hug him with the fervor that he was used to. Oliver drew back and took a peek into his girlfriend’s face. It was a deathly white.

“Oh my God!” he said in a shocked whisper “what happened, darling?!”

“Actually…” said Mia “I’ve met someone else…” Guilt was apparent on her paper white face.

Oliver collapsed on one of the nearby easy chairs and held his head in his hands. He felt that his world had come to an end.

“Who’s the guy?” he asked dully after a while.

“Filberte” Mia replied “he proposed to me before I returned. I have decided to marry him and start a family as soon as possible”. She remained standing, wringing her hands in distress.

“Ok” said Oliver dully. He was familiar with Filberte Armel. He was one of the guys who had interned along with Mia. Over her weekly Skype chats with Oliver, Mia had incessantly talked about Filberte. She had mentioned him in a jocular vein. She had found it amusing that Filberte ordered girly, sugar-induced cocktails when they went on an outing. Mia had also mimicked Filberte’s accent. Little had Oliver guessed that Mia had been falling in love with the unusual Frenchman.

“Guess his preference for Mojitos won you over” said Oliver smiling sardonically.

“Please don’t be sarcastic, Oliver” Mia said, suddenly bristling “There are so many things about Filberte that I like. He is compassionate, wears his heart on his sleeve and is not shy to kiss me in public…In our entire six years together; you never did anything of that sort!”

“Sorry, but public display of affection is not my style” hissed Oliver and got up to go. Mia picked up her handbag and tucked it under her arm. The two walked in awkward silence until Oliver had hailed a cab and had safely seated Mia in it.

The two gazed at each other for a while. Mia looked immensely apologetic. Oliver felt his heart being ripped to a million shreds. He wondered if he’d ever feel whole again.

“All the best” he said with a dry mouth.

“Wish you the same” Mia said softly.

Then the cab-driver drove away taking Oliver’s beloved ex with him.


Oliver returned to the office in a daze. Lily reminded him that he was to attend a one hour seminar in which Oliver was to speak about personal money management. Oliver walked into the conference hall and delivered the speech confidently. After the lunch-break, he went about his tasks competently. Yet inner peace evaded him.

He couldn’t believe that Mia had left him. Mia, who had said that they were made for each other… Maybe he should have hurried up and proposed to her right before she left for France. At 34, Mia had been concerned about her ticking biological clock. She had probably accepted Filberte’s marriage proposal on a “first-come-first-served basis”.

After 8 pm, Oliver went to his aesthetically furnished home, which was also located at Kensington. He poured himself a glass of whiskey and tried to suppress the horrific, recurring memory that had tormented him for the past 15 years. He usually succeeded in keeping it at bay, but today’s heartbreak had left him weak-willed. “No, leave me alone!” Oliver yelled like a lunatic. Yet the memory barged into his consciousness.

“She’s coming!” Jake’s ugly, raspy voice said “Quick boys, pin her down!” He pointed to a sylph-like, blonde woman who was walking in our direction.

“Jake, I really don’t wish to be a part of this!” 17-year-old Oliver protested. Theo said something similar.

Oliver felt his cheek sting. Belatedly, he realized that he had been slapped by Jake. Jake proceeded to whack Theo, too.

“Do as I say, you boneheads!” he hissed dangerously “otherwise, I’ll chop your heads off and send them to your parents”.

Oliver and Theo had the uneasy feeling that Jake would do what he had threatened to. They reluctantly caught hold of the unsuspecting girl and pinned her down, while Jake raped her—viciously and repeatedly.

The woman’s horrified face and bloodcurdling screams made Oliver sick to the stomach. No one heard her, as they were seemingly miles away from civilization. Then there had been blood, blood everywhere, seemingly oozing out of the victim.

“Damn!” Oliver presently said, swatting his aching forehead. He hadn’t always had a charmed life. Much of it had been spent in the city of Blackpool, where 65% of the population was unemployed and the living costs disproportionately high. His father had a business, which had suddenly run into a huge loss, forcing Oliver to shift from a public school to a terrible state-funded one. Unfortunately for Oliver, the school had a gang of bullies headed by a notorious boy called Jake Hornsby.

Jake and his gang were sullen, cynical youth involved in a number of shady dealings such as home made sex video circulation, drug smuggling, alcohol bootlegging and so on. It was also rumored that they hacked corporate programs. Jake also took perverse pleasure in bullying weaker mortals in school. Oliver had initially become the victim of Jake’s bullying, but was later forced to carry out tasks and run errands for the gang.

Oliver detested doing dirty work for the gang, but was forced to in order to save his skin. He remembered the consequences of his recent refusal to edit a homemade sex video. Jake and gang had punched him until he had a black eye and two broken ribs. Fearing further backlash from Jake and company, Oliver had told the school counselor and his parents that he had fallen down the stairs and hurt himself.

From that day onwards, Oliver hadn’t dared to refuse any chore Jake had for him. He had smuggled drugs, bootlegged alcohol and also helped Jake hack computer programs.

One fateful day, Jake developed sexual attraction to Jessica Lavin, a 20-year-old married woman who lived in the same colony as him. She was a devout girl, evidently married to a quiet, decent insurance agent. Even though Jake was built like a gorilla, he had a thing for small, delicate women. Jake made many attempts to talk to Jessica, but she wouldn’t even look in his direction.

That was when Jake hatched a plan to assault her. Jessica attended a computer class every evening and would take a particular deserted short cut on her way back home. Jake had discovered that and had arranged for Oliver and another boy named Theo be present to pin Jessica down, while he had his wicked way with her.

Oliver and Theo were reluctant to be a part of the heinous crime, but Jake had threatened them with dire consequences if they didn’t participate. Oliver and Theo had pinned the girl down with much distress, while Jake assaulted her. The crime had been reported an hour later. Since the criminals had been below 18, they had been sent to a reform school instead of prison.

When Oliver came out of a reform school after a year, his family had shifted to London. Oliver’s father had recovered his business losses; hence Oliver was in a position to attend a good public school. He immersed himself in academics, graduated from Cambridge University and became a successful CA.

Success hadn’t obliterated the past from Oliver’s memory. The face and the screams of the rape victim still haunted him.

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Forbidden Red Shoes (subtitle: Feminized by a Curse) was just published!

15-year-old orphan Max Robinson is adopted by the kindly Samuel Wright, a businessman. Samuel owns a striptease club called Tantalize and has a 15-year-old daughter called Ava. Ava is loving and giving towards her foster brother. However, she allows no one to touch her one possession: her red shoes.

Three years pass. Max shows a great knack for business, making Samuel to see him as the natural successor of his business. After Ava tragically passes away in a car accident, Max can’t resist the temptation to wear her red shoes…

A series of strange occurrences follow this event. Max’s body begins to feminize and he loses his penis…

Forbidden Red Shoes

Subtitle: Feminized by a Curse

Chapter 1 – My Sister Ava

I was 15 years old when I lost my parents. They had been textile mill workers, who had become victims of a freak accident. As I sat smoking away my sorrow in a street in Nottingham, a man approached me. He was smartly dressed in an expensive brown suit, loafers and a hat.

“Smoking is harmful, son” he said “you should kick the habit”. The man’s face was crinkled and his eyes were kindly grey.

“It’s not a habit, sir” I said, “but a reaction to tragedy”.

“A tragedy?” the man enquired “what happened?”

“I lost both my parents” I said “they died when a fire broke out in the textile mill they worked in. “I have nowhere to go. I have nothing to do”.

“From today, you have me” the man said “I’ll adopt you. You can call me dad. I’ll educate you and bring you up like my own son”.


The man happened to be Samuel Wright, the owner of the biggest striptease cum pole-dancing club in the UK. I moved into his posh, spacious house in Caster Field and was soon readmitted to school.

My new father was a widower with a daughter called Ava. Ava was benevolent and beautiful, with long blonde hair and kindly grey eyes. She was happy to have a brother and the two of us became great friends. Ava shared everything with me: smiles, possessions and secrets. However, there was one thing she didn’t let anyone touch: her red shoes.

They were the most tantalizing pair made of soft suede, with six-inch glass heels. They weren’t just any red, but crimson, like a drop of richest blood. The shape and contours were more bewitching that those of a woman’s body.

They were the most beautiful things in the world.

I caught myself gawking at the shoes often. I dreamt of them during the day and could hardly concentrate on my studies. I dreamed of them in the night and woke up sweating. The shoes excited me so much that they gave me wet dreams.

I longed to touch them and run my fingers on their contours. How soft the suede would feel against my hands! I yearned to run my hand over their silhouettes and feel the icy coolness of the heels. The longing grew into such an ache that I asked Ava if I could touch the shoes just once.

“Oh Max, I love you so much” said Ava apologetically “but I can’t let you touch those shoes. I don’t let anyone touch those shoes. I’m sorry”.

“Why is that so, Ava?” I asked “why don’t you let anyone touch them?”

“The shoes are a family heirloom” Ava explained “they are passed on from mother to daughter. My deceased mom gave them to me when I was 5 years old and asked me to wear them when I grew up. The shoes are the only reminder I have of my mom. I can share anything in the world, but not my red shoes!”

“Come on, Ava” I tried to persuade “I belong to your family now. Your father is my dad and you are my sister. Had your mom been alive, she would have considered me her son. I am sure she wouldn’t have minded if your brother touched those shoes!”

“That’s the point!” said Ava bursting into peals of laughter “you’re my brother, not sister! Had you been a girl, I might have considered letting you touch those shoes!”

“Fair enough” I said shrugging “I shall not ask again”.


Over the next two years, I grew into a taller, attractive young man. People found my tanned complexion, glossy raven black hair and striking green eyes very attractive. However, my hands and feet remained small. Much to my surprise, my shoe size didn’t change beyond 7.

Ava had grown up to be attractive too. Her hair had grown longer, complexion smoother and features more chiseled. We still had great affection for each other, but weren’t attracted to each other. The sibling bond between us grew by the day.

Since Ava didn’t take any interest in business, dad saw me as a natural successor. I learnt that Tantalize was a family owned company founded by dad, who owned 30% of the company’s shares. The remaining shares were owned by Lucas Wright, dad’s younger brother, Charlotte Hughes, the deceased Mrs. Wright’s sister and Ezra Green, a man who owned a cabaret in Manchester, Dylan Hughes, Charlotte’s husband and Isabella Wright, Lucas’ wife. The primary shareholders were directors on the board and also core members of the management. The only outsider in the family business was the manager, Mr. Logan Wood, a man with a sensible head on his shoulders. He was responsible for controlling family politics and ensuring that the business ran smoothly.

I was deeply interested in business, but found my mind flitting elsewhere. They routinely wandered to Ava’s beautiful, suede red shoes. I had promised not to touch them, but often found myself yearning to feel them.

I watched enviously whenever Ava put them on for a date or any other special occasion. I would longingly watch her practice ballet in them. The shoes were not strictly meant for ballet, however Ava often danced in them. When Ava practiced her slow, controlled movements and pirouetted around her room, I would hungrily eye her shoes.

If only she’d allow me to touch them once, just once.

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Voices from the Past – transgender thriller/mystery

  • Title: Voices from the Past
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: thriller, suspense, transgender, mtf

The protagonist is 21 year-old Briton, Peter Wright who marries his sweetheart, Libby Brown. The two visit Kolkata for their honeymoon. The newlyweds decide to visit the Dakshineshwar Kali Temple to seek blessings of the deity. When inside the temple, Peter Wright goes into a trance and starts hearing a voice. The voice commands Peter to walk along the banks of the River Ganges, cross a mini forest and stop at a side street where vendors sell women’s clothes, jewelry and makeup items. Under the influence of the hypnotic voice, Peter dresses like a woman and sits under a tree for hours until his wife finds him.

The voice persists and seems bent on feminizing Peter. Is it a supernatural force or does it only exist inside Peter’s head?

Voices from the Past

by Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 – Honeymooners

I met Libby Brown when I’d gone to Globe Theatre to watch the play Romeo and Juliet. I had been so touched at the depiction of the star-crossed lovers that I couldn’t help breaking into tears. Libby, who was seated beside me, giggled mercilessly. She found it funny that a man could cry in public.

“I must say you are in touch with your feminine side” she said snickering “I have never seen a man get as emotional as you”.

“To each his own” I replied offended at Libby’s (who was then a stranger to me) teasing “I’ve never seen a woman who sits dry-eyed at a heart-wrenching play”.

“I’m in touch with my masculine side” replied Libby unperturbed “my parents have brought me up to be strong, independent and unemotional”.

“We’d make a good pair then” I said lightly, regaining my spirits.

After the play finished, Libby and I walked around the area together and had a cup of coffee. Libby was a tall, big-boned blonde with a big heart and laugh. She was a foil to my dark-haired, small-boned, not-very-tall (I’m 5’6) self. However, both of us shared similarities: we were both young (21 years old), freshly graduated and eagerly looking forward to what life had in store for us.

After a few weeks of dating, Libby and I got married. Our families weren’t too thrilled as they thought that she and I were too young to get hitched and hadn’t seen enough of each other. However, Libby and I were happy to have got married. We knew each other well enough to want to spend the rest of our lives with each other.

Or so I had thought.

When it came to deciding our honeymoon destination, my wife left the choice to me. “You’ve married me in good faith, Pete” she said “I’ll let you wear the trousers in the house”.

“That’s nice of you, honey” I said “but I’d rather think of the two of us as equal rather than me being the master of the house”.

“Whatever, darling” said Libby “but I want you to decide where we go for our honeymoon”.

That was a kind offer. Libby was being very generous. I gave the matter some thought. Rich images of a foreign land bombarded my vision: the vast meters of a cantilever bridge, the beating of drums and the blowing of conches and the aroma of fish cooked in mustard oil. I dreamt of a land, which was vibrant and fecund, yet had underlying currents of something dark and terrifying…

I realized that the place I was thinking about was Kolkata, the capital of West Bengal. My parents, who had loved traveling, had lived in different countries during their prime. They had lived in India for about two years, when I was between 8 and 10 years old. My parents had supported the family by teaching English. After our stint at India, the family had had moved to Thailand.

Apart from the cultural shock I had experienced, and feelings of being overwhelmed by the vivid sights and sounds of the city, I didn’t remember much of Kolkata. I didn’t remember if I had been home-schooled or sent to a mainstream school, whether I had any friends or if my parents had been amiable with the locals. This was strange considering I was grown up enough to remember many more details…

The impression Kolkata had left on me was a beautiful one, but under its glorious surface lay a malevolence, which I couldn’t, at the moment, identify. Yet I felt the intense desire to revisit the charismatic city. It was as if a force outside of me was luring me to revisit the banks of River Ganges (or Hooghly as it is known in Kolkata) along with my wife.

“Kolkata” I presently said to my wife “I’d like to romance you in Kolkata, my sweet”.

“That’s a rather unusual choice” said my wife peering curiously into my face “I knew you had a taste for the exotic, but didn’t expect you to surprise me to such an extent…”

“I’m sorry if my choice has disappointed you” I said apologetically “we could change the destination if you like. Perhaps you’d like to go to Paris, a more conventionally romantic city?”

“No!” said my wife scornfully “Paris is so clichéd—almost every honeymooner goes there. I’d be happy to go to India. I believe it has a great air”.

“Don’t make the mistake of confusing the whole of India to be the same” I said laughingly “one region is as different from another as chalk from cheese”.


Libby and I got a 3 month tourist visa to India. We planned a good one month holiday in the country and flew straight to Kolkata. The two of us arrived at Dum Dum Airport and booked a hotel room in the Esplanade Area, which was at the center of the town and was situated close to all the tourist hot spots in the city.

As Libby and I drove through the city, I reveled in its rich sights, sounds and colors. London was gorgeous, but had a conservative sterility to it which was offset by the sensual fecundity of Kolkata. Kolkata was so engorged with rich cultural, literary, religious and artist flavors that I found my senses reeling. Yet I know that in the underbelly of this beautiful city lay a deep dark secret, which was of personal significance to me.

I told myself that I was imagining things because of heat and tiredness. Once inside the hotel room, my wife and I had a shower by turns and ordered some food. After resting for a while, my wife browsed the tour itinerary.

“Man, this city is an eclectic mix of different places!” she said “I wouldn’t know which to see first…you choose the first place, Pete”.

“Not again” I groaned in mock exasperation “I seem to have married a woman who suffers the dreaded disease of indecision”

“Yes” agreed my wife spiritedly “the chief reason I married you is so that you make all our life’s decisions!”

“Okay ma’am” I said rolling my eyes “please read out the places listed in the itinerary”.

“Sure” said Libby skimming the itinerary “there is Victoria Memorial, Indian Museum, Science Museum, Fine Arts Museum…”

“England has hordes of museums too” I said in a monotonous voice “and I’m sick and tired of them. Let’s see something, which is unique to India…something of religious significance perhaps?”

“How about the Dakshineshwar Kali Temple?” Libby said “we’d also get a close view of River Ganges, considered to be one of the most sacred rivers in India”

“Good choice” I said “we’ll go there tomorrow after breakfast”

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Abigail Resurrected – A Professional Mourner

  • Title: Abigail Resurrected
  • Subtitle: A Professional Mourner
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: mtf transgender, horror, romance suspense

18-year-old Noah Edwards is a professional mourner. He has lost his parents a long time back. Noah attends 18-year-old Abigail Lewis’s funeral along with his colleagues. Abigail is a sick, young girl who has succumbed to an unusual type of tuberculosis. At the end of the funeral, Abigail’s mother, Imogene Lewis, asks Noah to stay back. She offers him a job for a large sum of money. The job entails Noah dressing up like the deceased Abigail by wearing her clothes, donning a blonde wig and blue contact lenses.

Abigail Resurrected

Subtitle: A Professional Mourner

By Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 – The Offbeat Career

I walked into the dingy, dark office. A man in his 50s, with a scraggly beard and a pair of rimless glasses, asked me to take a seat. His name was Leo Harris and he headed a group of professional mourners known as “Forget-Me-Not”.

Leo went through my resume for a few minutes and said: “From what I perceive, you haven’t had an easy life. Welcome to my little group of professional mourners. Going by your pale, little face, I don’t think you’d have much trouble squeezing out a tear or two”.

I nodded in a dignified manner. There was some truth in Harris’s words. My life was hard. This was a reality, which no amount of time would change.

My name was Noah Edwards and I was no prince. I had grown up in extreme poverty, with a wastrel of a father and an alcoholic mother. My parents lived on social security and managed to send me to a community school. There was never enough to eat and countless times we went to bed with no electricity in the house. I got sick of starving and shivering in the cold and started doing odd jobs like mowing the garden, raking leaves and helping the neighbors to clean out their garage. This helped us afford a few things besides bread. The family could now buy corned beef and potatoes, and a few cheap fruits like apples or oranges.

My parents died in a freak accident when I was 12. I sustained myself by working in a nursery. The state wouldn’t give a council house to a minor, hence I was homeless. I slept on park benches and in tube stations in the nights.

Belonging to a group of professional mourners was a unique experience. My friends and I would go from funeral to funeral, pretending to be one of the guests. My pals and I would think of the saddest movie we’d seen and weep copiously. I personally used The Schindler’s List to cry, but the girls used The Notebook or Fault in our Stars.

Before attending any funeral, we did a thorough research on the deceased person, so that no one would become suspicious of us. It required much effort and some amount of method acting. In the few months I had worked as a professional mourner, I had attended the funerals of all types of people: the gentleman who had lived up to be a hundred, a woman who had traveled the world and a child who had died in his infancy.

One nippy winter morning, Harris called me and my friends over to his office. “Funeral at 10 am” he said tersely “a group of young professional mourners required”.

“Who’s the victim?” asked Heidi White, a tall, hefty girl in the group.

“18-year-old Abigail “Abby” Lewis” said Harris.

“She was the only child of single parent, Imogene Lewis. Abigail had always been a sick child and had suffered from myriad health problems like a weak heart, inability to put on weight etc. A few months back, she was diagnosed with tuberculosis…it was pretty advanced when detected, she passed away. Dying of tuberculosis is extremely unusual in this day and age, but it happened in Abby’s case”.

“Why is Imogene Lewis hiring professional mourners?” I asked. “Abby had many friends surely?”

“She didn’t” replied Harris grimly. “Owing to her health problems, Abby had to be homeschooled. Imogene taught Abby herself as the mother and the daughter shared a very close bond. Abby was reclusive; she didn’t emerge out of her room when relatives and family friends visited. She barely left the house. Now that Abby is dead, Imogene is devastated, as you can imagine. What saddens Imogene the most is that Abby doesn’t have friends of her own age mourning for her. Hence, she contacted me and asked me to send a few young mourners over to their house in Surrey”.

“I’m glad we are going to Surrey” said Heidi “it would be good to be out in the countryside, out of the hustle and bustle of London”.

“Please remember that this is not an outing” warned Harris “a young life has been snuffed out cruelly by fate. It is a sad situation. Mourn as if you were close friends of the deceased girl. In case anyone asks, tell them that you met Abby online and visited her at home. Tell them that Abby was kindly, benign, sweet…general stuff like that. And the dress code is strictly to be followed: black gowns for the girls and black suits for the guys.

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Forbidden Sanctuary – Transgender Suspense Story

  • Title: Forbidden Sanctuary
  • Subtitle: Trespass sweatly urged – failing masculinity test
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: transgender, suspense, mtf

Jared Wells is the protagonist of the story.  He is from a conservative region in America, but aches to explore new cultures. Jared accidentally lands on Kito Island in Africa and is accosted by the Zorba Tribe. Chief Kave, the leader of the tribe, takes Jared home to his mother. The next day, Jared is forced to prove his masculinity by fighting with a lion. The young man fails following which he is dressed as an African woman. Jared is eventually feminized by the tribe. He is now called Zoya and is forced to marry the widowed Chief Kave.

Forbidden Sanctuary
Trespass Sweatly Urged
Failing Masculinity Test
by Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 – Jaded Jared

I was jaded. I am from a part of America that had more church-goers than in any other part of the country. When the rest of the country was experimenting with new cuisines, we guys resolutely stuck to our hamburgers and French fries. We hated immigrants, even though generations ago, we ourselves had arrived from a distant country. Also, we were the staunch long-time loyalists of the Republican Party.

I was called Jared Wells at that time and was 21 years old. Since pre-marital sex was considered an abomination before God, I was still a virgin. My parents expected me to get married in a few years time, probably to some girl who, like me, was also blonde-haired and blue-eyed. Until then, I would just have to watch porn and jack off. We Americans believe in the “Do-it-yourself” or the DIY philosophy. I was sticking to the philosophy by catering to my sexual needs all by myself.

I was sick of this insular community, with its stick-in-the-mud attitude. I detested being a stickler for rules. I wanted to be free…and explore other regions and cultures: primitive and pagan ones, preferably.

This desire had been welling up inside me for quite a long time. Hence, I had been building a special sea kayak for a good three years. I had carefully ripped and attached plywood sheets, stuck panels at the sides and had stitched them sturdily. After coating it with fiber glass and varnishing it until it shone, the kayak was ready to sail.

I was no foodie, but needed fuel to survive. So, I packed umpteen cartons of milk, breakfast cereal, and canned fruit. I also made sure that I had stored numerous bottles of drinking water. I sailed southwards with no concrete destination in mind.

At first, I loved it. I had a natural affinity for water and had won many kayaking competitions. But after a few weeks of paddling on, I was scared. I worried about a plentitude of things. What if there was a mishap and the kayak collapsed? What if there was a severe thunderstorm, which would rip me and my kayak apart?

Nothing as catastrophic happened. I paddled on for miles, with the wind conditions and ocean currents slowing me down. I had a faint idea that I was moving towards Africa, but wasn’t sure. I was drifting the ocean. Days turned into weeks. My water and food supplies were dwindling. I fervently hoped to catch a glimpse of a piece of land. When I finally did, it was of an island. Had I not been a confident person, I would have been convinced that I was hallucinating.

But Kito Island (I discovered the name later), was no delusion. It was an exquisite piece of reality. Winds blew through the whistling thorn trees, making them tinker like a series of bells. Unique quiver trees and the upside-down baobabs grew alongside the whistling thorn. The skies were unbelievably blue and the clouds a fresh pure white. Elation swelled in my heart, as I saw a lovely deer leap among the lemon grass. The sound of a nearby waterfall reached my ears.

I was dumbstruck by the untouched, virginal beauty of the island. My town was also beautiful, but had a smoky shop-soiled look to it—an inevitable consequence of civilization. I assumed that the island was uninhabited and decided to explore it, hoping to find something to eat. I moored my kayak to a nearby tree, and gingerly stepped on the ground. On impulse, I took off my sneakers. The earth beneath my feet was soft and moist.

I frisked the island, searching for something to eat. I dug out a few red yams and radishes, and devoured them raw. I quenched my thirst by stepping into the waterfall and drinking its fresh, sweet water.

The gush of the waterfall had drowned the sounds of approaching footsteps. When I looked back, I was in for the greatest shock of my life.

At least fifteen ebony-skinned men stood in front of me. They were naked except for a loin-cloth around their waists. Their faces were painted red, and hair braided into tight dreadlocks. They wore beads and cowries around their necks. Huge bows and arrows were slung over their powerful shoulders.

A man of about fifty stood a step ahead of the entourage. He was tall and well-built, and had a strong imposing presence. I noticed that he was dressed differently from other men. The loin-cloth around his waist was pattered, and he had twice as many beads and cowrie necklaces around his sturdy neck. Also, he wore an impressive headgear of lion mane and ostrich feathers on his head. Going by the variation in attire, presence and personality, I guessed that the man was the chief of the entourage.

His dark eyes radiated fire. My heart leapt to my throat. My hands began to go cold and clammy. I was obviously the trespasser here. I had evidently stepped on an island that wasn’t supposed to be intruded upon. Fascinated and mesmerized by its beauty, I had foolishly overlooked possible dangers that might have lurked on the unknown piece of land.

The men continued to stare at me. Convinced that the guys wouldn’t understand English, I tried to haplessly explain my situation through gestures. Astonishment struck me like a whiplash when the chief said “Come with us” in a deep, rich baritone.

The English spoken by the semi-naked tribal chief was flawless.

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Forbidden Gift – A Transgender Horror Story

  • Forbidden GiftTitle: Forbidden Gift
  • Subtitle: My Story of Feminization and Being a Victim of SRA – inspired by a real life story of spiritual catalyst Teal Swan
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: transgender horror, mtf, lesbian

Trevor Barlow is a pretty boy born with extrasensory abilities. He has dark hair and teal blue eyes. Trevor is neglected by his parents and is ostracized by the community that believes him to be Satan. As a result, the misunderstood child becomes silent and withdrawn. Trevor’s alienation is taken advantage of by family physician and secret pedophile Dr. Jacob Fallon who manages to win Trevor’s parents’ trust and gain informal custody of the troubled child. Once he has gained systematic access to Trevor, Dr. Fallon brainwashes Trevor into believing that he is the reincarnate of the wicked biblical queen, Jezebel. Over the next few years, Trevor is forcibly feminized and is now called Tessa. Tessa suffers horrendous abuse at the hands of his guardian for ten long years.

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Forbidden Gift

My Story of Feminization and Being a Victim of SRA

inspired by the story of spiritual catalyst Teal Swan

by Yu Sakurazawa



Dr.Fallon stabbed a lean unkempt man in front of me.

“Kiss him in the lips and get his pants down, Tessa” he orders me.

I have to do what he tells me to. Otherwise, he would kill my parents and their siblings, as he had told me many times in the past.

Slowly, I crawl to the bleeding corpse and kiss his cold lips and unhook his jeans pants.

“Do it now, Tessa.”

With my lace one piece dress on, I have to get take off my shorts, get his pants down and struggle with his withered penis until I “die” in ecstasy.

I was tempted to do what he had ordered me just like many times in the past, fearing that Dr. Fallon would execute his threat of killing my family. But today I had an epiphany. Dr. Fallon had been lying to me about everything: my so-called past life, my identity and also about my sexuality. I wasn’t Jezebel, the bad woman of the bible who had to pay for fighting against God. Neither was I a woman called Tessa. I was Trevor – Trevor Barlow. Yet for the past 6 or 7 years, Dr. Fallon had forced me to live in a female body.

I realized that Dr. Fallon had been lying to me all these years because he’d told me that the corpses I was forced to have sex with were those of people who had died a natural death. However, with the Ketamine effect wearing off, I realized he had lied. If Dr. Fallon had lied to me about this, it was likely that he had lied to me about everything else. He had gained the trust of my family, earned systematic access to me as a young boy and had brainwashed me into believing a number of untruths, including the lie that I was a girl trapped in a male body. He had injected female hormones into my body and eventually transformed me into a female. A genital reconstruction surgery conducted by a doctor (also belonging to the Satanic Cult) had completed my feminization process.

Dr. Fallon wasn’t the amiable, avuncular family physician that he overtly claimed to be. He wasn’t one who helped “sinners” like me atone. With utter shock I realized that my “mentor” was no more than a common pedophile, possibly one with a multiple personality disorder. Dr. Fallon was a mentally ill person, but was also a highly convincing speaker….a very dangerous combination… He had managed to convince my parents to informally hand over my custody to him. Likewise, Dr. Fallon had enough charisma to polarize a number of fellow pedophiles into the Satanic Cult.

My only concern now was to escape this man. He could no longer exercise mind control over me. When Dr. Fallon was diverted for a minute, I scampered away from the basement into the garage barefooted, jumped into a blue Cadillac Sedan and drove away–for miles. I didn’t know where I was going, but I just drove on. My right thigh, which Dr. Fallon had cut with a knife, was bleeding copiously under my white skirt. I knew I needed help, but didn’t know where to go.

But I certainly knew I wasn’t going back to my parents. My being different from the others had driven a wedge between me and them—a wedge that nothing in the world could bridge. I still couldn’t forgive mom and dad for making Dr. Fallon my guardian of sorts. If they couldn’t understand their own child, was it fair to let the family physician take custody of him?

I wish they had been more understanding of me and more alert to Dr. Fallon’s machinations. I wish they had suspected what he and the other cult members had been doing to me all these years and had saved me from them. I wish my parents had been my guardian angels who came swooping down to help me when I was in danger. But, no.

The damage had been done. I was unchangeably and irrevocably damaged.

“But you have to live, Trevor!” a voice inside me yelled “you have to use your gifts and your suffering to help heal others!”

“But how do I do that?” I yelled back “Besides, where do I go now?”

The image of a willowy girl with a tomboyish manner flashed in front of my vision – Mia Allen! I had met her at a party seven years ago. In a bid to broaden my non-existent social circle as a teenager, my parents had forced me to attend a party hosted by the son of an acquaintance. When I reached his house, a maypole of a girl with platinum blonde hair had opened the door, and had whizzed past me shrieking and screaming rambunctiously. I remember thinking: “what a weirdo!”. But as we went inside and said hi to each other; I realized that there was a pure, unadulterated kindness in Mia’s hazel eyes that nothing could touch. She was as sweet, innocent and compassionate as a child. I instinctively knew I could trust her. Later in the night, Mia and I had gone skating together. I had met her on one or two occasions since. Mia had once even invited to her house and I had visited her for ten minutes or so.

Yes, Mia was the right person to go to. But would she recognize me in a female body? Would she believe all that Dr. Fallon and the other cult members had done to me?

I was getting dizzier by the minute and unable to think right. I vaguely remember driving for another mile, pulling up in front of Mia’s home and frantically banging on her door. Mia opened the door and was shocked to see me bleeding heavily.

“Oh, my goodness!” she exclaimed “Let’s get you some help”.

I remember her ringing for the ambulance before I passed out.

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Forbidden Academy – Transgender Horror Story

Forbidden Academy

  • Title: Forbidden Academy
  • Subtitle: Feminized by Hypnosis
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: transgender horror, mtf, lesbian

Liam Bailey is the 19 year old protagonist of the story. Liam is a British citizen with Nordic looks: pale translucent skin, fair hair and eyes, which are as transparent as ice. Liam has been taking ballet classes for years, but is still not a great dancer. This is owing to the fact that he is too lean and weak to perform the pas de deux (a ballet movement, which entails carrying female dancers over the head). After joining the Sokolov Academy of Ballet in Russia, Liam falls in love with its scion cum principal, Anya Petrovna. He eventually comes under Anya’s trance and is transformed into a beautiful young woman called Lisa.

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Forbidden Academy

Feminized as a Hypnosis

Transgender Horror Series

by Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 -There was something about Anya

Somewhere between Moscow and St. Petersburg was a town. It was a small remote one, with a population of just about 50,000 people. Located in the town was a not-very-well-known ballet school called “The Sokolov Academy of Ballet”. In the warm, sultry summer of 2011, I had enrolled there as a student.

Dressed in tight leotards and a vest, I carried a lithe ballerina over my head. She was as light as a bubble and didn’t strain my back. That was saying much because I was a delicate, slightly-built danseur.

The Russian belles around me laughed; their laughter sounded like a merry peal of bells. They did a bourree (a ballet step) around me like a bevy of swans, enchanting in their white tutus, leotards and Pointe ballet shoes. Watching tiny young tightly-held-together female feet, moving back foot and then speedily following with the other, were indescribably beautiful to watch. It was so beautiful that I could hardly believe it was happening.

In the dream-like scenario, only one thing was missing. Anya Petrovna: The dark enigmatic academy cum principal, who apparently taught only once in a blue moon. According to my batch mates and seniors, the semi-retired Anya had seldom taught in the recent past. How I wished Anya reconsidered her decision to retire, and decided to teach us. It would be far more interesting to learn under her rather than being under the tutelage of the insipid, young Mr. Nikolai Blinov. The sinuous way in which Anya carried her voluptuous body; the slow, languid way in which she spoke and the intimate way in which she had looked at me—oh, it was sweet madness! I don’t mind admitting I had a crush on Anya; my curiosity was only exacerbated by the knowledge that Anya was a reclusive and very little was known about her.

I had been learning ballet in London for many years before I decided to study in Russia. I had been devoted to my art, but hadn’t really been a very successful danseur. Yet I couldn’t imagine being anything other than a premier danseur at the ballet. Hence, at 19, I didn’t really think it was too late to apply to top ballet schools in Russia. The Vaganova Academy rejected me. So did St. Petersburg Eifman Ballet. As did umpteen other well-known ballet schools. Finally, when I had almost given up, I got a letter of acceptance from the Sokolov Academy, located in a part of Russia I had hardly heard of. I didn’t remember applying to any academy by the name of Sokolov, and hence was quite surprised. I googled “Sokolov Academy” on the internet. The search results were “zero”. The place didn’t have any internet presence whatsoever.

I didn’t have memories of applying to the Sokolov Academy. Therefore, I wondered if all this was some kind of a hoax or a practical joke played by my chums.

The issue gave me sleepless nights. Finally, after a few days of tossing and turning, and with no resolution in sight; I decided to go to Russia to find out for myself. The mysterious Sokolov Academy had arranged for a one-way plane ticket, and had promised free accommodation. So all I had to do was sit in the plane on the designated date and fly away to the Domodevo International Airport in Moscow.

As I was just emerging out of Domodevo International Airport, a tall, heavily-built man in a chauffeur’s uniform approached me and asked: “Are you Mr. Liam Bailey?” As I listened to his pronounced Ls and hammer-hard Rs, a shiver of excitement ran down my spine. I was indeed in the caviar-replete, vodka-swilling Russia!

“Yes, I am” I confirmed, trying not to show the trepidation I felt.

“Please take a seat, Mr. Bailey” said the chauffeur, opening the door of a shimmering, stately M14 Chaika “Anya Petrovna awaits you”.

“Anya Petrovna?” I asked obviously puzzled “Who is Anya?”

“Anya Petrovna, the owner and principal of Sokolov Academy” replied the man, with a slight rebuke in his voice “one would have thought you’d know”.

“Yes, of course” I replied taking his rebuke in my stride “I was a bit disoriented, that’s all”. I laughed ingratiatingly, hoping to mollify the offended chauffeur. However, the man didn’t respond. He drove for the next few hours in chilling silence. Somewhere along the way, I must have dozed off, for the chauffeur’s thick, hammer-hard voice jerked me awake.

“Please wake up” he said tersely “we’ve reached the destination”.

I groggily opened my eyes to take in the sight of the solid Sokolov Academy. It was a rock solid brick structure, with a tented roof augmented with a Romanesque and Renaissance vault structure. The chauffeur carried my luggage and led me into a spacious lobby. We crossed the house area of the theatre and reached a long corridor. I noticed that a flight of steps led to a set of rooms above.

The chauffeur led me a few meters down the corridor until we’d reached a door. The black name plate had “Anya N. Sokolov” written on it in golden letters. “You go in” instructed the chauffeur “while I’ll go upstairs and deposit your luggage in your hostel room”.

A sudden apprehension seized me. I was suddenly terrified at the prospect of coming face-to-face with the enigmatic Anya Petrovna. Butterflies did a jig in my stomach. I turned to the chauffeur and uneasily asked: “May I go up to my room and freshen up first? I’m afraid I don’t feel very presentable”.

I self-consciously appraised my skinny jeans and brown polo-necked t-shirt. I then proceeded to run my fingers through my spiky light blonde hair. In spite of being a Briton, I had distinctly Scandinavian looks. My skin was as pale as my hair and my eyes were translucent like ice.

“Oh, you look just fine!” said the driver, before sneeringly adding “going by the way you are fuss, one would think you’re a girl!” After aiming this piece of insult at me, the chauffeur began traipsing up the flight of stairs with my luggage. I watched his massive form disappear around the bend and into one of the rooms. I then turned my attention to the door in front of me. I swallowed and forced myself to knock.

“Please come in” said a languid, husky, totally delightful voice. The sound of it gave me goose bumps.

I walked in hesitantly into a spacious office. A curvaceous woman in a form-fitting black skirt and a forest-green full-sleeved top stood with her back to me. Her unbelievably dark hair was held together with an ornamental brooch. Her slim pale fingers held a long cigar.

Even before she turned, my heart thrummed. There was something about Anya. Something exciting, something frightening.

She turned and gazed at me in an intimate fashion, as if she had known me for a long time. Her eyes seemed dark at first sight, but when you looked closely, you saw a mysterious interplay of violet, emerald and myrtle.

Anya wasn’t a conventional beauty. Her complexion was too pale, her jaw a bit broad and her nose slightly crooked. Besides, her form was too full and voluptuous for the standard ballet dancer, assuming Anya still performed. However, Anya was strikingly attractive. Her inky black hair, released from the brooch, spread around her face like an angry cloud. And those double-hooded, heavily-lashed eyes were the most mesmerizing pair I had seen on any woman.

Under the spotlight of Anya’s gaze, I turned numb all over. I felt as though my body was mine, yet not mine. I felt my eyelids becoming progressively heavier, as if they were being pulled down by weights. They were so heavy that they threatened to close. I strived to keep them open with a super-human exertion of will. Slowly, the heaviness I had felt began to lift.

“You are thin, reed thin” Anya remarked, appraising my body “about 80% of the girls here are heavier than you. You’ll find it difficult to perform the pas de deux (the over-the-head lifts)”

Anya’s words didn’t come as a surprise to me. In spite of being on an intensive gym-training program in London, my body remained very lean. My back was inflexible. As a result, I found that I was incapable of lifting most adult female dancers and often injured my back while trying to lift the younger girls over my head.

“Are you rejecting me?” I asked incredulously. I couldn’t believe that after having gone through the jubilation of having received the acceptance letter, the rigmarole of trying to find Sokolov Academy on the internet, enduring a 3 hour 40 minute plane journey to Russia and a few hours’ drive to here, Anya was actually asking me to go back to London.

“No dear boy, you’ve misunderstood me” said Anya in her delightful accent “the immaturity of your body is a defect that age will cure. Besides, we have a well-rounded fitness routine at Sokolov’s. Our academy would focus on strengthening your core and building light muscle to improve your strength and agility”.

“Anya Petrovna” I said dubiously “I have been trying to become stronger ever since I was 7 or 8 years old, with little success. I can’t afford to get my hopes too high”.

“You may lack the faith in your body” replied Anya, with a slight smile tugging at the corner of her lips “but I beg to differ”. Her manner was light and flirtatious, yet masked behind it was a kind of energy, or rather, an amalgamation of several agents of nature. This may sound insane, but at that precise moment, I felt that stored within Anya was the heat and glow of fire, the force of the wind, the coolness of water, the life-sustainability of earth and the dream-like quality of ether. It seemed like the whole of Dame Nature had been personified in this one magnificent woman. I had smiled at Anya.

Now I smiled at the memory of our meeting. As I balanced the long slender leg of one of the ballerinas on my shoulder, I gazed abstractedly (and hopefully) at the door. Then I froze as if an apparition had walked in. I was faintly aware of the awed little gasps all around me. For the person who had entered the room, wearing a jade-colored, long-sleeved leotards and matching ballet slippers was none other than Anya herself

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Forbidden Memories: Feminized as a Punishment – A Transgender Horror Story

  • Title: Forbidden Memories
  • Subtitle: Feminized as a Punishment
  • Series: Transgender Horror
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa

Dean Baker is the 32 year old protagonist of the story. He is a journalist, the owner of a reputed publishing house and a recently turned author.

When walking alongside the Arno River, Dean is abducted by three men. They take him to the North of the country and shut him up in a small room in a three-unit apartment. Thereafter, Dean receives one riddle after another. Solving them, evidently, will lead him to discover who the mastermind of his abduction is. Dean succeeds in finding the mastermind, but pays a price for a “dark deed” he’d committed in the past by being forcibly feminized.

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Forbidden Memories

Feminized as a Punishment

Transgender Horror Series

by Yu Sakurazawa

Chapter 1 – The Monster of Florence

I had shifted to Florence along with my wife and a young son to write a book on “The Monster of Florence”, an unapprehended criminal who had committed a slew of murders in the quaint city between 1968 and 1985. It wouldn’t be wrong to say that I had had done well for myself. I had started my career as a journalist with the Guardian, had briefly worked in a publishing house in London and now, at 32, was rich enough to take time off to write a book.

As much as I enjoyed my work, the gristliness of the content I was working on at times disturbed me. To refresh my brain, I was in the habit of taking frequent walks across the Arno River towards Pizzale Michelangelo. As I presently sauntered across the bend, I noticed that the roads weren’t teeming with people as it usually did. A sudden, inexplicable uneasiness gripped me. I sat down on one of the benches to calm myself.

As I held took deep breaths, an old ramshackle car pulled over the bend. The driver peeped out and asked “Got a lighter, buddy?” indicating the cigarette in his hand. He had a heavy Italian accent, but took great pains to address me in English. He had obviously realized that I wasn’t a local man.

I discreetly studied the driver. He looked as lean and hungry as an underfed greyhound, and as muscular. He may not have been more than 28 or 29, but years of bad living had obviously taken the sheen of youth away from him.

I got up and obliged. As I turned to go after lighting the man’s cigarette, the back door of the car swung open. Before I knew what was happening, a pair of powerful cocoa arms had dragged me into the back seat. I turned to look at the mighty human who had seized me. He was a black young man, probably in his early 20s. He may have been a North African who had immigrated to Italy years ago, for he spoke fluent Italian. I knew only a smattering of Italian, but understood enough to know that that the man was hurling profanities at me. His thick eyebrows were knit together in an angry manner, and he looked very formidable.

As the guy succeeded in getting me into the back seat, the driver revved up the engine and drove away. Realization struck me like a whiplash. I was being abducted. I had to do something about it—immediately. I opened my mouth to cry out, but a pair of hairy Caucasian hands stifled my cry. A few miles later, I realized that it belonged to my third kidnapper, a dark-haired man in his late 30s. He spoke rudimentary Italian like me; I surmised he was a fairly recent immigrant from Hungary, Romania or some other place in Eastern Europe.

For the next two and a half years, which I spent in captivity; I never learnt their names. For convenience’s sake, I called them Athos, Porthos and Artemis, the names of the famous three musketeers.

As the familiar piazzas, canals and spires disappeared from view, I realized we were moving out of Florence. When my abductors realized that I was closely tracing the route, they tranquilized me. Artemis (the East European) retrieved a syringe from his ragged leather bag and jabbed my arm with it. I was dead to the world for hours after that.

When I opened my eyes, Athos (the Italian) was driving down a sparsely populated mountainous tract of obviously non-arable land. One look at it, and I knew that it was impossible to grow crops, use machinery or build on this land. The air had also grown chillier. I rubbed my arms to subdue the goose bumps that had risen on them. It was apparent that I had been brought a long way from Florence to one of the remotest parts of Italy, evidently the North. My breathing became labored and irregular, and I thirsted for a drop of water.

“Acqua” I murmured in an unsteady voice “May I have some water please?”

“Aspetta!” snarled Porthos (the North African), while Athos, in his heavily accented English, barked: “You can’t order us like that! We’re not your indentured servants! Wait until we get to the destination. Then you can slake your thirst!”

The fury in the man’s voice made me cower and I curled up on my side of the vehicle. My legs were beginning to feel stiff and sore from long hours of sitting in a cramped space. At 5’8, I wasn’t the tallest man on the planet, but I had long legs and often needed as much leg space as a six footer. The expressions on the face of my captors had grown grimmer. I felt all the muscles of my body coil with tension.

The car came to an abrupt halt in front of a modest-sized, three-unit palazzo with wild flowers growing all around it. The palazzo seemed so deserted and overgrown with weed and wild grass, that it was hard to believe that anybody actually lived in it. It was sans balconies and an outdoor stair case that led to the terrace. However, it seemed to have some sort of a garage space where the men stopped their decrepit vehicle.

I had a cursory glimpse of two units of the palazzo as I was yanked in. The first was a living unit, comprising of a bedroom with three bunk beds, a kitchen and a bathroom. The second was some sort of a laboratory reeking of formaldehyde and some sort of disinfecting fluid. As I was whisked past the second unit, I wondered what my abductors did for a living. Were they scientists? Not likely. They were more likely to be blue-collared workers than white-collared ones.

I was subsequently lugged and bolted inside a tiny 8×10 room, with an unplastered wall and cemented floors. As the key turned in the latch, I felt as agitated as a trapped creature at bay. I turned and banged on the door with the entire force of the nervous energy pent inside me. “Open up!” I cried in petrified desperation “Let me out, please!” The men lingered in the vicinity for a moment, apparently indecisive as to what to do. Then, their footsteps faded away and became a mere echo in the wilderness. I stamped my foot in frustration and became fully conscious of the kind of place I had been thrown in.

Calling the room a pigsty wouldn’t have been an exaggeration. The mildewed walls and musty smell that hung about the place certainly gave it the appearance of one. However, the room had marks of civilization that a pigsty couldn’t probably boast of. It had a springy cot, a small coffee table and a rickety chair. A little decrepit little vase stood on the coffee table. A large full-length mirror and a noisy grandfather-clock graced the room as well. I kicked the door of the adjoining compartment open. It had a bathtub, a commode and a washbasin.

I closed the bathroom door and stood in front of the mirror in a zombie-like fashion. I had prided myself on being pleasant-looking, but at this moment I looked like shit. My body looked more skinny than sinewy, and my usually healthy complexion appeared blanched. The pupils of my green eyes were dilated. I noticed that my hands were trembling.

Thoughts raced my mind. Who were these men and what did they want of me? Was it ransom? That was a possibility. I had made quite a tidy sum for myself, which probably made a good potential target for kidnappers. If this was abduction for ransom, the men would have already called my wife up and demanded the money. And Sheena, no doubt, would have dispatched the demanded amount efficiently. She wouldn’t waste a moment if she knew my life was at stake. I really didn’t have much to worry about.

Yet my nerves were going to shreds. And the steady tick-tock of the grandfather clock served to exacerbate my anxiety.

Deep inside my heart I knew this wasn’t abduction for ransom. There was more to this affair than what met the eye.

It was then that I noticed the rose-scented pink envelope lying on the coffee table.

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Forbidden Mirror – A Transgender Horror Story

  • Forbidden MirrorTitle: Forbidden Mirror
  • Subtitle: The Fatal Gift of Beauty
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: transgender horror, mtf

Aaron is the only son of a British tycoon. He loses his mother in a horse-riding accident in his childhood. His father marries an extremely beautiful woman, Shakira. She takes Aaron wherever she goes like a real mother. While exploring his father’s estate, Aaron with his stepmother enters an old storehouse that his father has prohibited them to go in. Inside the eerie, unearthly storehouse, they find a beautiful mirror. When Shakira speaks to the mirror, it tells Shakira that she is the loveliest woman on earth. Aaron tiptoes into the storehouse at midnight and talks to the mirror. The mirror predicts that Aaron would be the most beautiful on earth in the future.

When Aaron turns 18, Shakira realizes that the mirror’s prediction has come true. An insanely jealous Shakira orders her assistant Imogene to take Aaron away from her sight and to shave off Aaron’s exquisite auburn hair. Aaron is subsequently abducted from home. He wakes up, naked and tonsured, in a dark dingy basement, where he is chained like a dog. Thereafter, Aaron is ordered to wear tattered female clothes and toil away as a maidservant in a house comprising of a vicious-looking old woman and her four evil daughters.

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Forbidden Mirror

The Fatal Gift of Beauty

Chapter 1 – The Presage

I can’t believe it’s happening. My father, a top cheese business magnate, is getting married again. It’s painful to accept, considering my father had sworn that the only woman he ever loved was my mother. Bryony Aveyard, my mother, was the most beautiful woman in Lake District. Her best feature was her long luxuriant auburn hair–a red thistle blowing in the wind. I have vivid memories of walking with my mother through the myrtle lakes, mountains, grasses and cobblestones around the region, sharing stories and laughing gaily. That silvery laughter came to an abrupt stop last year. My mother fell off a horse and suffered a fatal hemorrhage. The scenery of Windermere became dimmer after my mother died and the cheerful song birds fell silent. My father became a mere ghost of his former self and withdrew into a shell.

His bereaved state lasted for a whole year until he met Shakira. That’s her full name: Shakira. No middle name or surname. My father met Shakira at a party thrown by a friend during a business trip to Greece. He was apparently smitten by Shakira’s exotic beauty: her full statuesque figure, even brown complexion and smoky tip-tilted eyes. I remember someone mentioning that Shakira wasn’t a native of Greece, but had settled there for a great many years. As to whether Shakira was from Turkey, the Middle East, South America or somewhere else, nobody ever knew.

As I watched Shakira, in her shimmering beige bridal trousseau, carrying a bouquet full of pristine white roses, I understood her charm. The elusive scent surrounding her, the lithe grace of her movements, and the magical quality of her slightly wolfish smile had us all in its thrall. Soon, I too, became mesmerized by Shakira. And my affection for her paid, because Shakira wasn’t the stereotypical wicked stepmother one reads about in books. She was really quite amiable and kind. She took me along with her wherever she went, be it to a local cocktail party, the beauty salon or to the globe theatre in London.

“You really don’t have to let me tag around everywhere” I said with the typical embarrassment a 12 year old boy sometime feels “I wouldn’t like to intrude”.

“Oh sweetheart” said Shakira kneeling down and cupping my face in her shapely hands “you are like my very own younger brother. I don’t see you as intrusion; I see you as excellent company”. The beautiful husky voice, with a hint of exotic French accent, cast its spell. I was ineffably bewitched by the exquisite, exotic creature. Had I not had due respect for Shakira’s status as my new mother, I would have had a crush on her.

One dreamy Sunday, Shakira and I were sauntering around my father’s huge estate that we lived in. The house, a huge white building with grey triangular roofs, stood right in the middle of it. In front of it was a splendorous garden, where roses and azaleas blossomed. To a side was a stable, housing one or two of my father’s prized thoroughbreds. Behind the stable was a rectangular stone building that my father had prohibited me from going close to. The old storehouse that had remained locked for several generations.

At the moment, it beckoned, invited and magnetized. Before we knew it, Shakira and I were walking towards the stone building almost against our will. As we tiptoed towards the storehouse, hand in hand, I could feel the clamminess of my stepmother’s hand. When Shakira glanced in my direction with her dark doe-like eyes, I could see a contradictory mixture of curiosity and apprehension.

I could feel a bead of sweat form on my yet hairless upper lip. Perhaps Shakira and I were making a huge mistake by not paying heed to my father’s warnings? Anyway, it was too late for contemplations and regrets. My stepmother and I had unlatched the door and had walked straight into the old storehouse.

A queer, change in air was conspicuous as soon as I stepped in. Ostensibly I was still on earth, on the familiar territory of my father’s estate, yet I felt as though I had stepped on another planet. The air around me was thick, almost viscous. I could also discern a significant change in air pressure and felt the way you feel when on an aircraft. Also, there was a kind of stillness around the room that gave one the feeling of walking in a dream.

I could discern that Shakira felt the same. She had let go of my hand now and wafted around with a surreal glaze in her eyes. As she moved about the room, caressing each piece of decrepit furniture, grand moth-eaten draperies and superfluous chunks of porcelain, I followed her. In spite of the trance-like state that we were in, both Shakira and I were acutely conscious of each other’s breathing. Eventually, Shakira wafted towards the chink in the shuttered window, beneath which something glimmered.

A closer look told Shakira and me that we were looking at a wall mirror: the most exquisite one I’d ever laid my eyes on. It was round, with a clear spherical surface, and was surrounded by lovely sea shells. Shakira walked towards it and dreamily stood in front of it. The smooth clear surface of the mirror reflected her chiseled face with its smoky eyes, slim arched nose and heart-shaped lips. Shakira’s dark Eastern hair framed her face perfectly. Unable to endure the sight of her own beauty, Shakira gaped at the mirror. In a voice that was hers, yet in a strange way, distorted, asked:

“Mirror, mirror on the wall. Who’s the fairest of us all?”

The room became stiller. At this point, I am sure I’d even have heard a pin drop. Then slowly, much to my disbelief, the surface of the mirror lifted up a bit like a plate of the earth thrown up by tectonic activity. It formed a vague, vaporous simulation of a visage, before actually answering:

“You, Shakira are the fairest living woman on earth. Your beauty and elegance are unrivalled”.

A shaken Shakira startled and involuntarily took a step or two backwards. I too moved along with my stultified stepmom. Trembling like two leaves, we looked at each other. The voice from the mirror sounded like that of an elderly male’s. A thought crossed my mind. I looked into my stepmom’s dark doe-like eyes and beheld my own skepticism reflected there. Both of us opened the door of the storehouse and peeked outside to check if someone had played a trick on us. The deserted parchment of land stared back at us for miles and miles. There was no one. The mirror had spoken.

“Let’s once again to ascertain that wasn’t an illusion” said Shakira and resolutely dragged me back into the storehouse again. She stood in front of the mirror, and repeated her question. The mirror’s vaporous face emerged and it repeated what it had said, even more firmly than the last time. Shakira and I exchanged awestruck glances. It was obvious that what she and I had experienced was no illusion.


That night, I couldn’t sleep. I relived what had happened earlier in the day and could feel it all: the surreal stillness of the storehouse, the oppressive thickness of the air, the relics of my forgotten history and of course, the mirror. The same magnetic force that had drawn me and Shakira towards the storehouse my father had forbidden us to go to, beckoned me towards it once again. As much as I knew my father would disapprove, I tiptoed out of the bedroom, dressed only in my striped pajama-suit and bunny slippers, and got down a flight of stairs. I retrieved the key from above the refrigerator and softly opened the front door, hoping against hope that no one heard me. Once outside, the cool, crisp air of the night fondled my face. It was a full moon night, yet I switched on the flashlight in order to be able to see well.

I walked across the stable and reached the storehouse. I gingerly unlatched the door and walked in. If the air had appeared thick in the morning, it was positively gelid now. The room had got stiller and a queer kind of hush hung about the room. The mirror glimmered beneath the right side window. I walked towards it like a sleepwalker. With a feeling of awe commingled with that of forbidding, I stood in front of the mirror. My own marmoreal face, containing huge almond-shaped blue-green eyes, chiseled nose, shapely lips and dimpled chin, stared back at me. In the dim beam of the flashlight, the glorious shoulder-length auburn hair that I had inherited from my mother glinted like burnished copper.

“Mirror, mirror on the wall, who is the fairest of us all—in the past, present and the future?” I asked in a quivering, tremulous voice.

The surface of the mirror lifted up like a plate of the earth pushed up by tectonic activity. A hazy, vaporous apparition, resembling a human face, rose and spoke in the same old man’s voice of the evening:

“Your mother Bryony Aveyard was the fairest in the past, your stepmother Shakira is the loveliest in the present. You, dear Aaron, will be the fairest in the future. In a few years you will be even more beautiful than Shakira or anyone else in the world”.

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Forbidden Hotel – Feminized Perpetually – A Transgender Horror Story

Forbidden Hotel

  • Title: Forbidden Hotel
  • Subtitle: Feminized Perpetually
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: horror, mtf-transgender

After the sudden demise of his father, 18 year old Troy Carter travels all the way from the US to be with his half-sister, Julia, who lives in the Dartmoor region of England. As the ominous quality of the moors casts itself on the boy, a series of unusual events occur. A cab driver refuses to drop Troy to Hodgson Hotel, which is owned by Troy’s brother-in-law Arthur Sykes. The driver profusely apologizes for his act, claiming to have become neurotic after the mysterious disappearance of his son, George, two years previously.

Kindly, middle-aged priest Father Anka escorts Troy to Hodgson Hotel. Upon reaching Hodgson Hotel, Troy is at the receiving end of three shocking events: attempted sexual assault at the hands of his brother-in-law Sykes, the drastic transformation of his sister Julia who has currently been reduced to an emaciated haggard-looking woman and Julia’s hysterical overreaction after receiving the news of their father’s death.

Eventually, Troy is abducted and imprisoned in a wing of Hodgson Hotel, where Sykes injects him with a substance that transforms Troy into a long-haired curvaceous woman called Tamara. Troy notices that he is not the only one being held captive at the Hotel: a number of young men abducted from the Dartmoor area have been forced to become women through mysterious rituals. And the most startling thing is that all the detainees have something in common: blonde hair and blue eyes.

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Forbidden Hotel

Feminized Perpetually

Chapter 1 – An Incredible Discovery

I gazed out of the shuttered window. The wild, mysterious moorland stretched across infinite miles. The romantic moorland, laden with tors, bogs and rivers, had become a metaphor for my life, which too stretched on to infinity. And it had become as mysterious and haunted as the moors, even if not half as romantic.

I gazed down at the thick, unyielding ropes that bit into the delicate flesh of my wrists and ankles. As much as I tried to evade it, my gaze settled and lingered on my developing body: the budding conical breasts, the big sensitive areole, the distended nipples, the tapering waist and gently curving hips. My big china-blue eyes had grown wider, its pupils dilated and the eyelashes thicker. My golden blond hair that had grown longer, curled beside my ears with cloying affection. And I could swear my skin had grown way smoother than ever before.

All this might have been exciting if I was a growing adolescent girl. Except that I was not. I was a nineteen year old American man called Troy Carter, who was being held captive on the first floor of Hodgson Hotel, situated in South West England. And how did I, a once sunny cheery Miamian, land up in a gothic-style hotel in the brooding, deserted region of Dartmoor? Well, it’s a long story. And I don’t feel like narrating it right now.

The three blonde “sisters”, whom I’ve nicknamed Gia, Mia and Ria, are huddled against each other like three little rabbits. They are young women with breasts as ripe and fecund as melons, a narrow tunnel of a waist, wide birthing hips and perfectly rounded derrières. With their long, luxuriant blond hair that shimmers like mini suns and shapely blue eyes of different shades, the “sisters” are ethereally beautiful. However, their beauty has certain eerie quality about it, for when you look into the eyes of the women, you see bleakness. And if you look deeper, you see terror.

And the three aren’t real sisters either. I just call them that for the sake of convenience. And the peculiar thing about Gia, Mia and Ria is that they don’t speak. I doubt if there is anything technically wrong with them because I’ve heard their strange semi-conscious whisperings in the darkness. I’ve tried to glue my ears to their murmuring mouths in a bid to listen more clearly, but their speech has failed to make sense. In the mornings, the “sisters” are rendered mute because the eyes have seen the unseeable, and their ears have heard evil. And their pale square faces are afflicted by a longstanding, protracted fear and an ineffable anticipatory dread of what is to come. The “sisters” are like frightened little lambs that are soon to be led into slaughter. However, they don’t know if death will be their ultimate fate. If there is anything that is terrifying in the world, it is uncertainty. And these three girls are closer to being pushed into the unknown more than I am.

I looked into the newspaper cuttings that I had found beneath the bedding the previous night. It was a report of all the missing persons around Dartmouth region. I skimmed through the list and read three reports carefully. They read as follows:

1) Ambrose Hastings

Missing Since: Feb 18th, 2014
Missing From: Dartmouth
DOB: Feb 14th, 1993
Current Age: 23
Sex: Male
Race: White
Hair Color: Dark Blonde
Eye Color: Midnight Blue
Height: 5’9
Weight: 72 kgs
Ambrose is believed to be in the local area. He has the tattoo of a sailor under his left clavicle.

Anyone having information must contact:


The Dartmouth Sheriff’s Office

2) Charles McDowell

Missing Since: April 11th, 2014
Missing From: Dartmouth
DOB: Jan 9th, 1996
Current Age: 20
Sex: Male
Race: White
Hair Color: Platinum Blonde
Eye Color: Cornflower Blue
Height: 5’5
Weight: 60 kgs
Charles has a strawberry shaped birthmark on his thigh and a pierced left ear.

Anyone having information must contact:


The Dartmouth Sheriff’s Office

3) George Mitchell

Missing Since: January 18th, 2014
Missing From: Dartmouth
DOB: Dec 26th, 1995
Current Age: 21
Sex: Male
Race: White
Hair Color: Ash Blonde
Eye Color: Baby Blue
Height: 5’7
Weight: 63 kgs
Anyone having information must contact:


The Dartmouth Sheriff’s Office

There were cases of several other missing young men from the region around 2014-2015. I couldn’t help noticing that all of them were or had been in the 18-25 age group when they were reported missing. Another curious parallel that I had noticed was that all the young men had blonde hair and blue eyes. Granted the eyes were of different hues of blue, and the blonde of varying shades, but this was one similarity that no one with a discerning mind could afford to overlook.

I was sure that the relatives of these young men would have left no stone unturned to find them. Apart from registering a missing person’s report with the local sheriff and placing reports in newspapers, they would have posted photographs of their wards on bulletins, post cards, milk cartons and websites to publicize the descriptions of the missing guys. Yet according to subsequent reports that I found under the mattress, they hadn’t been found in spite of the law authorities combing out the area.

Why and where had these boys gone? What had happened to them?

Had they chosen to escape domestic abuse and exploitation by running away? Had they been mentally ill, and hence had absconded? Had they joined some sequestered cult of some ultra religious organization? Had they disappeared elsewhere to take advantage of better employment and living conditions?

The last was not a very plausible theory, as the young men were simple country boys and had evidently lacked the confidence to foray into unknown territories. They were simple lads who were born and bred in Dartmouth, had lived simple lives there and had loved their parents and relatives. None of them had evidently shown the slightest inclination to abscond, abandon their parents and sweethearts and run away to exotic distant lands.

The repetitive thought niggled at me again. Where had these young men disappeared?

A queer whimper-like sound from one of the girls in the room drew my attention. Ria, Mia and Gia were huddled close to one another, their burnished blonde hair shimmering like lights in the dark, gothic room. Three beautiful heads huddled close together: one dark blonde, the second platinum, and the third a blinding shade of stark ash blonde. The eyes of the “sisters” were a varying shade of blue, right from Gia’s midnight blue to Mia’s cornflower blue eyes to Ria’s wide, terrified baby blue orbs. A thought struck me: an incredulous, fantastic and far-fetched thought. No, it couldn’t be true. These things seldom happened in real life. They just happened in books and bizarre sci-fi movies.

Yet, there was something undeniably “different” about the “sisters”. Their over-feminized bodies notwithstanding; there was something a tad out-of-place about their square broad jaws, wide shoulders and large hands and feet. They stuck out like eyesores among the curvaceous lusciousness of their bodies and the smooth, creamy texture of their skins.

Mere hypothesizing can be futile. I knew what I had to do. I marched to the cowering sisters and kneeled down amicably in front of them. The “sisters” flinched as I approached, but let me come close. I approached Gia and gently lowered the neckline of her tulle fabric a bit.

Perhaps I wasn’t entirely taken aback when I noticed a palm-sized tattoo of a sailor beneath her left clavicle. Gia had, a few summers back, been called Ambrose. Ambrose Hastings.

I hovered over Mia and gently hitched up her skirt to the starting line of her cycling shorts. Mia didn’t resist or slap my hand away. In the few weeks of captivity that we had shared, the “sisters” had come to view me as a friend, a kindred-soul, and as a victim of similar circumstances.

And on her dreamy, creamy thighs, I saw it. The beautiful, rose-pink strawberry shaped birthmark. Yes, there was no doubt that “Mia” was the missing Charles McDowell.

Since no distinguishing marks had been mentioned in the case of the third person, I had to take an inspired guess. “George?” I asked turning to Ria.

The ash blonde mutely nodded.

Somewhere in the deep recesses of my brain, a memory stirred.

“Is your father a cab driver?” I asked.

Ria wordlessly nodded, once again.

So, my far-fetched theory had been true after all. The young men missing from Dartmouth couldn’t be traced because their gender identity had been changed. They had been held captive in Hodgson Hotel and turned into young women.

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Forbidden Asylum: Feminized in Insanity – transgender horror story

Forbidden Asylum

  • Title: Forbidden Asylum
  • Subtitle: Feminized in Insanity
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Category: transgender horror (mtf)

Ray’s car breaks down in a deserted section of a highway. There is nobody in sight. His cell phone is dead. He walks a few minutes looking for help and finds a building which appears to be an old hospital.Ray walks in and feels something is very wrong. The place is called “Vicent Asylum”. The manager calls him Rachael and treats him as if he was a woman. So does the nurse. Ray is stuck in Vincent Asylum.

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Forbidden Asylum

Feminized in Insanity

Chapter 1.

I was on cloud nine. Driving my carmine blue Alto car along the highway made me feel on top of the world. Nothing—not even sex—could give me the rush that having my foot on the clutch pedal, hand on the steering wheel, accelerator and on the gear knob could give me. And driving my beloved blue Alto was a particular pleasure. With my sizeable inheritance, I could buy even a Parisian limousine, but still preferred my humble conveyance. Alto was the first automobile I had purchased with my own money, and I wouldn’t trade it for all the limousines or SUVs in the world.

Not that the scenery was much to speak of. I had veered a long way off the house and was presently glissading along the NH4 Highway of Karnataka. The vegetation was sparse, with an isolated tree or so standing about fifty meters apart for one another. The tar and concrete roads reflected the sun and radiated the heat of the morning. However, I found great pleasure in being far from the madding crowd, the traffic congestions and the fumes of the main city and speeding away in merry solitude.

Suddenly, the car came to a jerking halt. Weird. My right foot was still on the accelerator and I hadn’t pressed on the brake pedal either. My gear shift was still in first gear, not in neutral.

I don’t know what was wrong. Since I hailed from immensely well-to-do family with chauffeurs to drive me around, I had actually never bothered about the mechanics of cars. The mechanical complexity of a car seemed boring and unnecessary. It seemed totally superfluous.

It didn’t seem so superfluous presently. With not a soul in sight for many meters, I was at a loss as to what to do. There were no rickshaws or cabs in the vicinity that I could hail and request for a ride home or, at least, beg to be taken to the nearest mechanic. Thankfully, I had my new Samsung cell phone. I could call my wife Dimple and ask her to come and take me back home. Darling Dimple: she of the dark hair, long chiseled face and a dimpled chin (which had, incidentally, earned her the moniker). Dimple had always been an expert at rescuing lads in distress. Or to be more specific, this particular lad in distress. Dimple darling… she was the one who wore pants in the house. She was a real brick, my wife.

I tried to switch on the phone only to realize that it was out of battery. Drat! I wish I had paid more attention when it had been flashing the “Low Battery” warning. Of course, there was a plug point in my car where I could recharge my phone. However, recharging would take some time. And if there ever was an impatient soul on earth, it was me.

I was stranded in a hot deserted road with an old broken down car, virtually no cash in my pocket and a phone that was as dead as a dodo.

And at 25, I was too young and restless to sit around and wait for a goddamn phone to get charged or for a passerby to come my way.

Abandoning my carmine blue Alto on the spot, I started walking ahead of the seemingly blank, hot, thorny road. I had walked for three-fourths of a kilometer or so when the air cooled down a little. I speculated that there must be a water body nearby. Not long afterward, a big banyan tree came into view. And lo! Behind the big banyan tree stood a building.

Yippee! I wasn’t going to spend the rest of my life on the highway after all. I made a dash for the building with the enthusiasm of a child. As I approached the big banyan tree, I got a clearer view of the building behind it.

The building was stark white and sterile-looking. Its architecture was rather conventional and there was nothing distinguishing about it. Probably a hundred other buildings in Bangalore looked the same way. I guess “non-descript” is the word I am looking for to describe it.

The building might have been anything: a factory, a government office or an infirmary. As I approached the rather high iron gates, the sign “Vincent Hospital” came into view. So, one of my surmises had been right after all.

Nothing about Vincent Hospital struck me as particularly strange. Except for the sign that read “Caution: Electrified Walls”. Now why would any self-respecting hospital electrify its walls? Were the patients inside some sort of dangerous wild animals that needed to be curtailed by barbaric means? Another thought counteracted the one that I had previously had. Probably the hospital authorities were wary of anti-social elements sneaking in and playing mischief. Off late, there had been more than one case of miscreants kidnapping new born babies from maternity wards of hospitals.

With the aforesaid explanation that I provided myself, I got closer to the gate. Much to my surprise, it wasn’t guarded by security personnel. I opened the latch of the gate and found that it opened rather easily. A small court yard comprising of a few potted plants led to a small, office-like chamber.

I peeked into the office through a window. A man was seated at an old-fashioned desk. He seemed to be in his mid 40s. Speaking objectively, the guy wasn’t bad-looking. He had a nice complexion, curly pepper and salt hair and a fit-enough physique. Yet, something about his cheap polyester shirt, the tasteless gold-plated chain hanging around his neck and the grossness of the matted chest hair creeping from over his shirt cheesed me off.

But this was no time to act squeamish. Besides, I was not a girl to act finicky about such things. And at the moment, I was in a real bad spot and could use the man’s help.

I knocked on the door. “Yes?” the bloke questioned “How many I help you? I am Ashok, the owner cum manger of the hospital”. The man’s voice was flat and non-descript just like the hospital he ran.

I introduced myself and explained the situation to Ashok. “My phone was out of battery, otherwise I would have phoned my wife” I elaborated “So, I’d truly appreciate it if you let me use your cell phone to make a call”.

“Sorry, Mr. RayRay, but I don’t use a cell phone” the man replied much to my stupefaction “In fact, none of our staff does. This is a hospital that….well, caters to patients who are mentally ill. We can’t afford to have them disturbed or distracted”.

“But Sir, I am sure you have a computer with an internet connection” I said “I could perhaps send my wife an email. She may not check it immediately, but might in a couple of hours”.

“No, Mr. Ray” we don’t even have a computer, leave alone wifi” said Ashok rather irritably “there is always a chance that one of the patients might sneak into my office and use it. And as I’ve already told you, we can’t afford to have them distracted. They’re here to be treated, not to be entertained”.

“I understand, Mr. Ashok” I said quickly, kicking myself for having got under the owner’s skin “I think I should leave now. The battery of my phone may be charged. I have left it in the car which is about a kilometer away from here”.

Ashok’s coarse features seemed to soften. “Wait a minute” he said kindly “you need not walk all the way back in the hot sun. We have a land line on the third for of our hospital. You could use it. I’ll escort you to the phone”.

Ashok led the way up three flights of stairs with old-fashioned red-oxide flooring. I was rather taken aback that a hospital of this magnitude didn’t have a lift. As Ashok and I made our way up, I noticed an elderly, slightly disheveled gentleman clutching the rusting railings. As I passed him, the man adjusted his thick brown-framed glasses and exclaimed: “Finally, the universe has been unveiled! Indeed, I have the cosmos in my bubble bath!”

The man had spoken so suddenly that I nearly jumped out of my skin. Ashok laid a placatory hand on my shoulder and said “Don’t mind Mr. Shiva, Ray. He’s delusional. For a destitute man, he sure nurtures fancy delusions of grandeur! Thinks he is a great astrophysicist who has made a groundbreaking discovery!”.

“Oh, I see” I said not liking the mocking tone that Ashok had employed while explaining the patient’s illness. After all, problems of the mind weren’t in one’s control and it was downright unethical to make fun of people who suffered from them. I was so ensconced in ruminating on the Ashok’s insensitivity that I was jerked back to reality when he and I had reached the room in which the telephone was evidently accommodated.

The first thing I noticed when I entered the room was a square rectangular metal panel perched about six and a half feet high on the wall. The panel probably sheltered an important switch or plug point.

The room itself was a small cubbyhole with tight shutters, transparent blinds and a small desk. On the desk stood a small black telephone which took me down the memory lane. It was a replica of the one we used to have way back in the 1990s when I was a little kid. It was mighty astonishing to see the very same model in 2016!

Strange. It was very strange.

Had time stood still in Vincent Hospital?

With trembling fingers, I started dialing the digits of my wife’s cell phone, one by one. Ashok stepped out and discreetly closed the door after him, evidently to give me some privacy. After dialing the digits, I waited impatiently. A few seconds later Dimple’s husky, attractive voice sounded on the other end.

“Hello” my wife said cagily probably since she didn’t recognize the phone number flashing on her cell phone screen “who is this?”

“It’s me, darling!” I said “I’ve got myself into a tight spot!”. I proceeded to explain the disaster the day had turned out to be. Dimple was apparently in a mall, shopping with our close friend, Sanjay.

“Vincent Asylum is on the highway, baby” I said impatiently “It is partially obscured by a huge banyan tree. Please come and get me ASAP!”

“There’s no need to get panicky, Ray” said my wife soothingly “NH 209 is very close to our apartment block and the mall. Sanjay and I will be there in no time!”

“Well, I am not on NH 209” I replied a tad sheepishly “I went off for a long drive and ended up hitting NH4…sorry!”

“Really Ray, did you have to venture that far?” my wife said in the manner of a parent admonishing a child “It will take me and Sanjay at least an hour and a half to get there. With the traffic congestion and all, it may take two!”

“I am so sorry…” I bleated again.

“Never mind” said Dimple “What did you say the name of the hospital was?”

“Vincent…” I said “Vincent Hospital”.

“Vincent Hospital?” repeated my wife, simultaneously skimming through the pages of her memory “it doesn’t ring a bell. Sanjay” I could hear her ask our friend “have you heard of it?”

Sanjay obviously answered in the negative, for Dimple said “No, honey. He hasn’t heard of it either. It must be a fairly new place”.

“Certainly doesn’t seem that way going by the appearance” I said skeptically “I am really sorry for the inconvenience I am putting the two of you through”.

“It’s okay, baby” my wife reassured “don’t worry. Sanjay and I will start out right now. We will also get a mechanic to look at the car”.

“Bless you, dear” I said and hung up. It was mollifying to hear my wife’s comforting voice. Besides, our super-dependable friend Sanjay was with her, so I didn’t have to worry. Sanjay was our savior in many ways. I really don’t know how Dimple and I would manage without him.

So, the mission has been accomplished. Now all I would have to do was go downstairs and wait for my wife and best friend. They’d soon be here with a mechanic and we could go back home once the car was serviced.

As I opened the door, Ashok was standing outside looking rather worried “Did you speak to your friend, Rachael?” he asked.

Rachael. The man addressed me—a tall, dusky, athletic, virile young male–as Rachael. The incongruity of the female moniker with my gender and appearance tickled my funny bone. “Really, Mr. Ashok” I said going into convulsive splits of laughter “I must say you have a wacky sense of humor!”

Ashok didn’t laugh. In fact, looked sober, lugubrious….and concerned. One look at his worried, serious face, and I stopped laughing.

A few seconds passed before Ashok spoke again. “Have you been taking your medicines on time, Rachael?” he asked.

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Forbidden Circus – Feminized Forever

  • Trapped in CircusTitle: Forbidden Circus
  • Subtitle: Trapped in Circus – Feminized Forever
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Transgender Category: MTF

Alfred Batista is the protagonist of the story. He is a “pretty” boy, with enormous blue eyes, pink apple-like cheeks and red hair. At 18, he is 5’7 and doesn’t yet display signs of puberty. However, Alfred’s tastes are “boyish”: He is interested in fishing and soccer. Alfred undergoes great distress after he is captured by the circus staff, forcibly dressed as a girl and displayed in the exotic animal menagerie. He bravely tries to escape after the show, but is assaulted by the manager who intends breaking Alfred’s spirit with the barbaric act. However, Alfred still continues working on his plan to escape. In a bid to do so, he gets his best friend, Ethan, captured too. Continue reading Forbidden Circus – Feminized Forever

Forbidden Island: Feminized in Despair

Forbidden Island

  • Title: Forbidden Island
  • Subtitle: Feminized in Despair
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Transgender category: MTF

A Transgender Horror Story:

A handsome young sports man is abducted and is brought to a dark brooding island called Medusa Locks. He is thrown into a gigantic cage and is shocked find 6 other abductees of different nationalities in the cage with him. He is told that he will be used as a guinea pig.


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Forbidden Island
Feminized in Despair

Chapter 1 – The Nightmare Begins

It was a dreamy creamy Sunday morning. Liam Davies woke up and stretched luxuriously. He was in the first flush of youth, 25 or 26 perhaps, and undeniably handsome. At 5’8, he was neither tall nor short and had the sinewy, lightly muscular body of the ace badminton player he was. He had the enviable flat abs of youth, healthy well-toned legs and sturdy arms which had rendered the backhand, backswing and smash with unrivalled panache. Liam’s feet were shapely and rather delicate for those of a man. However, his best features lay above his neck. Liam had the most beautiful face one would have seen on any male of the human species. He had large innocent baby blue eyes, a noble straight nose and lips that were naturally full and pink. The mop of curly hair on his exquisite head was golden and the traces of stubble he had on his otherwise clean-shaven face were of the same hue.

Liam wriggled his still sleepy toes and felt the left side of the bed to find it empty. ‘Strange’ he thought ‘Lauren usually sleeps until 8 am on Sundays’. Then he thought she’d gone to the main laboratory to conduct experiments on her rats, snails, guinea pigs or whatever it was that she used in her in vivo experiments. Lauren or Dr. Lauren Wood was Liam’s wife of two years. She was in her early thirties, broodingly beautiful and extremely mysterious. Her introversion, intensity and intelligence were a total contrast to Liam’s openness, light-heartedness and sportiveness. Liam was simple and good-natured and didn’t wrack his brain about intellectual stuff. This was perhaps why he had been attracted to someone who was his complete opposite.

A little mewling wail brought Liam to his senses. His 6 month old daughter Amelia Jane (AJ, for short) was crying. Liam felt a sudden sense of guilt at not having checked on the baby as soon as he got up. As a dad, he felt the need to be more responsible.

He went to the crib in the next room and picked up his cute baby girl. She was small and pink and a spitting image of her dad. ‘Coochy coochy coo’ Liam softly murmured in baby language that he presumed AJ would understand ‘why is my naughty imp bawling?’. AJ shrieked some more in response.

Assuming hunger was making her cranky, Liam walked to the fridge, balancing AJ sideways against his waist. ‘Lauren must have left a bottle’ he thought looking around the racks. Finding none, he emptied a packet of milk in a container and started mixing baby formula in it. He was gently cooing to AJ all this time.

At this time, they barged in. Three hooded men in black jeans and t-shirts. Two of them carried hockey sticks, one a long butcher’s knife and the third a Smith & Wesson 32 revolver. They were tall, six feet or more, and were much heftily built than Liam. ‘Put the baby down’ ordered one of them, his voice a low menacing growl.

Liam’s first impulse was of disbelief. The second was one of humor. This was surely some kind of a pantomime; one of his friends’ practical jokes carried a little too far. ‘Come off it, Robbie’ he said jauntily ‘I’ve recognized ya’.

‘I am not any Robbie, you faggot’ said one with the knife forbiddingly ‘drop that tone or you’ll be dead meat’. He stepped forward and held the knife against Liam’s throat. The steel of the 7 inch blade caught a ray of the sun and glinted threateningly. It was now that Liam realized that this was no joke.

One of the assailants put his hockey stick down and wrested AJ off Liam’s hands roughly. He threw her on the couch carelessly causing her to little face to go red with shock. She broke into another series of wails. Liam froze in shock.

‘Do what we say, else we’ll kill her’ the one with the Smith & Wesson 32 threatened ‘bash her against a boulder and her wee head will soon smash into pulp. The horrific image the words evoked made Liam feel faint. He breathed deeply to keep himself conscious.

‘I’ll cooperate’ he said faintly ‘please don’t harm the child’.

One of the guys with the hockey sticks ambled up and pinned Liam’s hands behind him. He retrieved a pair of professional looking handcuffs and locked Liam’s wrists with them.

The men roughly yanked him out of his huge Mayfair house. AJ was still hollering her lungs out. Her screams could be heard right up to the front door. One of the thugs salvaged a key from his jeans pocket and locked the door securely. When he was returning it to his pocket, Liam caught the initials LW on the key. LW stood for ‘Lauren Wood’. ‘Hey wait!’ Liam screamed ‘that’s my wife’s key! Where is she, you bastards? What have you done to her?’ This was turning out to be a nightmare. Liam was being yanked out of his house, forced to leave behind a hungry baby all alone. Apart from this, there was a possibility that his wife could be dead. ‘What have you done to Lauren, you sons-of-a-bitch?’

In response, the men tore a piece of adhesive tape from its roll and plastered it tightly against Liam’s pink mouth. ‘That will keep ya from rousing the neighborhood, you wee scunner’ they said bestially ‘Not a sound from ya now, aye?’

All Liam could do now was conjure and suffer limitless petrifying possibilities in silence. The experience was hellish.

The goons dragged Liam through the entire cemented path adjacent to the lawn. When they reached the gate, the one with the knife opened it with a loud clang. A huge dilapidated bluish- grey milk van stood in the corner of the road. They opened the back door, tossed Liam on the cold metal floor and clamorously slid the door close. The thugs with the hockey sticks got into the front seat and shut the door after them with a bang. The armed man and the knife-wielder got into the padded leather seats at the back. The one with the gun pressed the steely metal on the base of Liam’s neck. Liam felt his neck grow soft with sweat. One of the goons inserted the key in the ignition. The engine roared to life after a shudder. As the old milk van pottered along the street, the gunman increased the pressure of his weapon on Liam’s neck. The one with the knife softly ran his lethal metal along the length of Liam’s spine, as if in icy reminder.

They journeyed for about an hour. Liam could hear the men talking among themselves. They used ‘Auld’ to mean ‘Old’, ‘Clatty’ for ‘dirty’ and ‘Glaekit’ to mean ‘Stupid’. They had earlier called Liam a ‘you wee scunner’ to imply ‘you little nuisance’. ‘These blokes aren’t British’ guessed Liam shrewdly ‘the hail from up North: Scotland’. He vaguely wondered what Scottish thugs were doing with him. But then he thought that he perhaps ought not to wonder. He had won the All Indian English Championship at 20. He had 2 gold medals won at the commonwealth games in his kitty. Liam Davies had the world record for the fastest smash at 166mp/h. His current world ranking was No. 2. Modest as he was, Liam couldn’t deny the fact that he was a celebrity. A guy who had made it big and made a lot of money. His photos, Liam was sure, was splashed in all the newspapers in the UK. Therefore, the fact that these thugs were Scottish was really not very surprising

Liam wondered what the motive of the crime could be. ‘Why, the money angle of course’ he answered his own question. For what other reason other than ransom would a man like him be abducted for? Liam was sure Lauren had got a call by now. That is, if she was alive. But then Lauren had to be alive for this abduction to make sense. Else, who would shell out the demanded ransom money? Liam’s father had died two years ago; his mother had followed suit a year later. He had seven or eight siblings, but Liam was barely in touch with them.

‘Long drive ahead. Make him sit up’ commanded one of the hockey-stick wielders to his underlings ‘We were asked to bring him alive’. The lackeys responded by gripping Liam’s sinewy shoulders and roughly hoisting him on to one of the seats. From where he was seated, Liam now had a chance to look out of the window. The party had, by now, travelled a significant distance from Liam’s west end home at Mayfair in London. The temperature had risen marginally. As Liam breathed, he felt salt on his tongue. ‘We’re in the vicinage of the sea’ he speculated. The geography of the land had also changed, giving way to a certain kind of wildness. The scenery had lost its previous picturesque quality and had become rugged: with one mountain rising steeply behind the other, until all of them vied to make the highest peak. The coast of the anonymous sea came into view. It seemed to have a number of inlets, bays and peninsulas, separated from the main bulk of the land by umpteen little rivers. The area was fairly lush and wooded.

As they progressed, it became grimmer. All traces of the sun seemed to have disappeared, leaving in its place angry, thunderous black clouds. For a minute, Liam wondered if it might rain, but soon his speculations were laid to rest. Hurricane like winds travelling at the speed of over 40 km/hr washed over the coast, sweeping the clouds off and with them, all possibility of rain. All that was left behind was a gloomy, dark stillness. The skies were quite grey, as if night had descended. Yet it wasn’t late. Liam conjectured the time to be barely after noon.

They reached the edge of what appeared to be an island. Massive rocks, metamorphosed from igneous rocks heated above a temperature, stood on it. One peculiar one, shaped like a twisted venomous snake standing erect, caught Liam’s eye. He had never seen a metamorphic rock shaped quite like that.

‘Get off’ the men barked. They were still wearing their black masks. Liam obliged like a man in a dark, terrifying dream. They asked him to go and lie down on one of the rocks. The fear of the unknown made Liam’s heart palpitate with fear.

One of the blokes with a hockey stick went to the van and fetched something that resembled a first aid kit. He also got a crate of Scottish whisky with him. All four of them came and stood in front of him like towering giants. Liam was half-sitting, half-recumbent. He’d never felt as vulnerable in his life. He wanted to talk to the thugs, demand what was going on, but the strong adhesive tape on his mouth stifled his words in his throat.

‘Shall we start?’ asked one thug of the other in between puffs of smoke.

‘We could’ said another in a wistful tone ‘but it would be a bit of a shame’

‘What would?’ the first one asked sharply.

‘A comely boy like that. It’s a bit of a waste’ said thug two in a cryptic manner.

‘Cut the Crap, Eddie and come straight to the point’ the first one snapped.

‘Why not do him first?’ said Eddie nearly drooling ‘He seems as smooth as a girl’.

So, the thugs set out with the tasking of ‘doing’ Liam. They made him turn over to lie on his stomach. Then they proceeded to tug at his shorts and underwear. Liam made futile sounds of protest from behind the adhesive tape. Soon, his rear was exposed. Liam could feel the nippiness of the dank sea air on his skin.

The thugs took turns. Four pistons of erect flesh penetrated him and retracted. The searing pain could have made the toughest man cry. However, what affected Liam more was the mortification. ‘Man, I’ve been gang-banged’ he thought in humiliation ‘No one should ever know: not my friends, fans, Lauren, AJ….especially not AJ’. For every child, the parent was the protector and the nurturer. If AJ came to know that her ‘strong daddy’ had been fucked, she would grow up to be a very insecure young woman.

Liam vowed to take the secret of this incident to the grave. After all, the horror had lasted for no more than 40 minutes—a mere speck in the history of time. After the thugs got what they wanted (from a previous overheard conversation, Liam knew it wasn’t his life), they’d leave him alone to return to his wife and child. And they could continue as if nothing had occurred in between to mar their bliss.

Liam’s rapists pulled his underwear and shorts up, restoring his dignity. They retrieved a black scarf from the ramshackle van and blindfolded him. They walked a stretch, but Liam was limping. He left a trail of blood on the sinister black soil. One of the thugs put him on his shoulders as easily as he was a child and carried Liam the rest of the distance. Liam’s astute mind gauged that they had walked about three kilometers.

When they finally removed the scarf veiling his eyes, Liam could see that they were in a sterile white corridor, strongly reeking of a disinfectant. The walls were stark white and the tiles a very chilly kind of a blue. The air was sultry, yet Liam felt an icy chill pass down his spine. The whole aura about the place was that of a hospital, or, to be more precise, a laboratory—cold, impersonal, cruel.

Suddenly, he had a vision of Lauren. She was looking straight into his eyes and quoting one of the supporters of vivisection: “The science of life is a superb and dazzling hall which may be reached only by passing through a dark and ghastly kitchen”. Lauren’s voice had suddenly become unlike hers: raspy, obsessive, insane. The way she had uttered the words had made Liam shiver. Then on impulse she’d asked in a normal, everyday kind of a voice ‘You’ve never seen a lab, have you Liam. Why don’t you come with me today?’. ‘No thank you’ he had laughed light-heartedly ‘You’ve spooked me off them for good’. ‘Besides’ he continued picking his badminton racket up ‘I can’t afford to miss practice—not even to be with my ultra-gorgeous wife’. ‘You little flatterer!’ Lauren had burst out, and then laughed.


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Trapped in Lunatic Femininity – Transgender Light-Horror Story

Trapped in Lunatic FemininityThis is a light horror transgender fiction.

  • Title: Trapped in Lunatic Femininity
  • Subtitle: Light Horror Transgender Novella
  • Author: Yu Sakurazawa
  • Genderswap category: MTF





Hugo Karr is a social media celebrity with his countless selfies and inspirational stories. His vanity is rooted in his looks and ambitions. His muscular body and darkly handsome, symmetrical features attract women’s eyes, but he needs to learn the hard way that inspiration arises from awful life experiences. Continue reading Trapped in Lunatic Femininity – Transgender Light-Horror Story